The Weapon - Oblivion  - part 9

By Diana the Valkyrie

I'd shag you myself, only I'm a bit lacking in the old fleshly envelope

Update: 03/08/2003 to valkyrie05







Wendy.self:



I always love to visit Fee, and what makes it extra-good is that she always

has a crowd of kids for me to play with. I did my conjuring act for them, they

always love that. The nurses watch too, and I bet they can't tell when I'm

just doing ordinary conjuring, and when I'm doing stuff that humans can't do.

And the kids just don't care, they take it as it comes. Sure, it's sad when

you see a child in pain or ill, but these things do happen, and we have to

help them get better as best we can. I think it does help them when I play

with them like this, they laugh and cheer and forget that they're in a

hospital for a while.



Of course, while I was gone, David and Fee were talking about sex.



I didn't listen in, you have to give people their privacy when they ask. But

there was only one reason why David wanted me gone. He was upset that I wasn't

giving him everything he wanted. Well, I know it was upsetting him, but

there's two of us in this, and I just wasn't ready yet to get into a long term

thing with someone. I'd only just gotten rid of my hangups over Duncan, and I

couldn't face going through anything like that again, not just yet. And now

there was this horrible memory problem.



That was really bugging me. I mean, I was scared. I haven't been scared

before, but I knew about fear. Fear is what I do to other people when they're

bad, so as to get them to be good. Well, one of the things. The other thing is

love, I people respond very well to that. Most people. But sometimes you need

a quick fix, and then scaring them is faster. But fear isn't suppose to happen

to me, I'm supposed to be immune from any damage. Except that I wasn't, the

business over Duncan's death had shown me that. I live and learn. And now I

learn that my memory, the core of my being, is unreliable. What else do I have

that doesn't work? Can I make mistakes in arithmetic? Can I get logical

syllogisms wrong? Once you start to doubt yourself, what is there? And I was

doubting myself, with good reason.



Wendy.Duncan:



Buck up girl, we'll lick this thing.



Wendy.self:



Oh Duncan, oh Duncan, what am I going to do? I don't even understand what the

problem is, or what an answer would look like.



Wendy.Duncan:



We do what you already started doing. We ask people, we keep asking. You

already got one good idea from someone, the checksumming. Maybe there's more

we can learn from people who've had to deal with similar problems.



Wendy.self:



Duncan, my love, you're right. And I've got to win, I've got to. This isn't

just me, it's you too.



Wendy.Duncan:



Very true. We're in this together, girl.



Wendy.self:



I'm not a girl



Wendy.Duncan:



Yes you are.



Wendy.self:



Am not.



Wendy.Duncan:



Are too.



Wendy.self:



Oh Duncan. I do love you so much.



Wendy.Duncan:



Then will you do me a favour?



Wendy.self:



You want me to tup David, don't you. We already had this discussion, I told

you why I don't want to, at least not yet. Damn, everyone's on me about this,

him, you, Fee.



Wendy.Duncan:



Wendy, I'd shag you myself, only I'm a bit lacking in the old fleshly

envelope, you know? But David's perfectly adequate in that department, and you

know you want it. You can't hide that from me, you know.



Wendy.self:



Duncan stop it, stop it. Leave me alone, can't you? Haven't I got enough on my

plate without having to row with you?



Wendy.comms:



David, wake up, we're nearly home.



Wendy.Duncan:



OK, I'll leave it for now. But you haven't heard the last of this.



Wendy.comms:



David, could you. Could you just, just give me a kiss? Please? Mmm, yes. And

the hug was extra!