The Autobiography of Madman 
By Madman the True Moron



I have written quite a few stories, primarily dealing with mixed wrestling and
brutal female domination. As a reader of this writing, it is likely that you
share my interest in these themes. I have no idea how you became interested in
the unusual topics, usually consider taboo or twisted, by "normal" society,
but I will relate how my interest developed and how it manifested for over
fifty years

It started when I was in the fifth grade in school. I got into a friendly
wrestling match with a girl classmate during recess. She securely pinned me
down with a schoolgirl pin. Although she did not hurt me, it was most
humiliating. The other kids teased me about it for a long time

I don't remember much about fifth grade, but I still remember every detail of
that incident- what she was wearing, the pleased look on her face and my
feelings of humiliating. Back in those days, girls didn't wear jeans to
school, they wore skirts and bobby. socks. I still remember the feeling of her
shins pushing down on my biceps. I doubt she even remembers that event, but it
is engrained in my memory forever.

Over the next several years, my interest was laden, will few opportunities to
fulfill. About my only outlet was watching certain women on television. My
favorite show was The Avengers, I loved watching Emma Peel get into her
inevitable fights.

You have to bear in mind that female wrestling and sessions with them was a
deeply underground activity. There was no internet with sites like this one or
WB 270 that dealt with it. There were occasional ads from session providing
women in Robert Kennedy's Muscle Magazine, Screw Magazine and The Village
Voice.

I traveled quite a bit for business and I spent a little over a week in New
York each year. I don't remember where I saw his ad, but I contacted a guy
named Joel from an organization called Muslette. He was a very unusual fellow,
whose personal fetish was tattooed female bodybuilders. But he did hook up
guys with session wrestlers in New York. Over a period of several years, Joel
set me up with several women. It was said that he got busted for cocaine. I
cannot confirm that, but he did disappear and was never heard from again in
regards to Musclette.

Before that, Joel had introduced me to several session wrestlers. If the woman
and I wanted to have additional sessions, we just arranged them ourselves Joel
did not get a commission on these sessions and the woman and I would split
that money. I would save a little money and she would get a little more than
usual. Back then, in the mid to late 80's, sessions cost from $200 to $250 for
an hour.

The first woman I met through Joel was my favorite of all time, the legendary
Rosemary Joyce. She was a gorgeous woman about 5'9" tall and 140 lbs. She had
a centerfold body, remember muscle weighs more than fat and a beautiful face
with dark blonde hair in the Farrah Fawcett type style. Rosemary was an
intelligent cultured woman as well. She played power forward for the woman's
varsity team at Vasser. She is a published author of children's books and a
stunt woman for movies involving fight scenes. In a James Bond movie, she was
one of Octopussy's female fighters.

I was both excited and a bit nervous before the session as I really had no
idea what to expect. Rosemary had an engaging personality which put me at
ease. We then got on our knees to begin wrestling. The first fall was very
competitive and even and she submitted to a pin after a few minutes. I later
learned that she allowed me to win just to set me up to have my spirit
crushed. Rosemary totally dominated for the rest of the session. I met her
once a year for about a decade and never again did I come close to winning a
fall or even holding an advantage for even a brief amount of time.

Rosemary was deceptively strong and very skilled. I have no idea how she
acquired her wrestling skill as few women trained in wrestling or martial arts
in those days. She put me on a number of tough holds such as head locks and
hammerlocks. While not bulky like a bodybuilder's her arms were firm and
strong. But her favorite and most devastating hold was definitely her
headscissors. She locked me firmly between her smooth firm thighs on a way
that we had eye contact. The pressure was only slightly painful but she had me
securely trapped.

Then she spoke in a calm soft, almost coquettish voice. She told me to stay
perfectly still, not to move a muscle. She gradually increased the pressure of
her hold until the pressure was painful. True to her word, if I made the
slightest movement, she would pour incredably unbearable pressure into her
scissors. Her facial expression didn't change, but I felt like my skull would
crack or I would pass out. Then she would cut back on the pressure to still
keeping me firmly trapped in her hold, but with a minimum of pressure. This
sequence repeated a few times until I finally got the message.

Now I just laid still, trapped between her awesome legs. I was actually
enjoying the sensation because she had beautiful shapely legs and was barely
hurting me. Suddenly, she reapplied the devastating pressure once again. When
I asked her why she did so even though I was obeying her commands, she softly
replied that she was just testing. Finally, after what curiously felt like
both a mere instant and also an eternity, she released her scissors and my
session was over.

Now she became friendly once again and we chatted for a few minutes before I
left. She told me that it was not really about wrestling, but rather about
control. I agreed with her. In my job, I was the boss over several women that
would have to try and do what I told them to do. While my requests were
strictly professional and we had no relationship outside of our workplace, I
was still fascinated by the forced role reversal of that wrestling session I
saw Rosemary once a year for about a decade. I also had sessions with other
New York session providers as arranged by Joel while he was still in business.

In Las Vegas, they have those free newsprint flyers listing local escorts,
private dancers and women that offered other services in those metal
dispensers all along the Vegas strip. I found an occasional listing for a
session wrestler and I would call the number and check them out. I did get a
couple of sessions that way, nothing all that remarkable. but they were mostly
decent wrestlers.

Some of them were more into B&D, but that was of no interest to me. To be tied
up, whipped or whatever a dominatrix does had zero appeal to me. I did not
want to be dominated by ropes, whips or any bondage equipment. I wanted to be
physically and mentally dominated by a woman using nothing but her own body to
subjicate and punish me. I had a couple of decent sessions but my best Vegas
sessions were going to come soon.

A video store near my house got a franchise from L Scot who distributes mixed
wrestling videos from all of the major suppliers such as Joan Wise, Special
Interests and others. I began to accumulate a collection which o kept hidden
and only watched when I was alone. This was also about the time that the
Internet developed and that opened up a whole new world for fans of mixed
wrestling and related fetishes. Websites, such as this one were created,
containing of wealth of information about them

I could not pay to join any of these websites, not because I couldn't afford
it, but because I needed to keep it private with my family My wife would know
if I was paying for a website and certainly be highly upset by it. I love my
wife and did not want to upset her or risk our marriage, but I still felt a
strong desire to pursue my interest in mixed wrestling

My solution was to obtain contributor's memberships by writing stories. I
actually had written a couple of very short stories many years before this
that got published in the now extinct Cavalier and Nugget magazines. I enjoyed
writing them and I got into several good websites by writing them. The primary
one is this site, where I have an author's bookshelf with quite a few stories.
I was also a member of sone sites that no longer exist such as Battle of the
Sexes and Helen Von Mott's Virago site.

I was very active as a member of DtV's site and participated frequently in the
chat room and on the message boards. This is still a great site and offers a
wealth of new material which is well worth the membership fees, but I miss the
communication with other members which rarely occurs anymore. It was nice to
get the opinions and experiences of others and it made me feel more at peace
with myself. I used to think I was crazy to have these interests, but was
reassured that others who were obviously sane, such as Tom Nine and others
shared them with me. Currently, my writings have given me membership in
Special Intetests and in LhArt. Lhart had illustrated several of my stories
and you can see one for free on my author's bookshelf main page on this
website.

Now that it was easy to arrange sessions and even to research the woman prior
to setting it up, I began engaging in sessions frequently. I travelled for
business each year to New York , Las Vegas, Chicago and Dallas every year and
usually booked a session during that trip. Since New York was a longer trip, I
would book at least two of them. I would always see Rosemary Joyce and then
try a new one.

Most of my sessions ranged from good to disturb and I would like to discuss
some of my favorites. I will not discuss the ones that weren't all that great
because that is just my opinion. Others may disagree and I would not want to
impune the woman's reputation particularly if she is still in the session
providing business.

One of my most interesting session providers also became a friend of mine- the
late Kyla Luciano. Kyla was abandoned by her parents as a baby in South Korea
and adopted by an Italian couple in western Pennsylvania She was the first one
that had knowledge of bjj ( Brazilian jui jitsu. Even though I had a size and
strength advantage, she submitted me at will, primarily with tough arm bars
and triangle chokes. A fall took only about a minute and I had no answer for
her quickness and skill.

This was not really the type of session I prefer so I explained to Kyla what I
would like. Being new to the session business, she paid attention as she
sincerely wanted to provide a quality session. I told her that submissions
should be savored like fine wine, not guzzled like cheap beer. When she knew
she was the superior wrestler, using other techniques make the session more
interesting. These techniques might not work against another skilled bjj
player, but they would work against an unskilled schmoe.

Kyla developed into an outstanding session provider. She would trap me in a
hold and take her time releasing it when I submitted. Sometimes she would
immediately apply another hold before I had a chance to recover. She was an
excellent role player and would taint and trashtalk during the session. I
absolutely love the fantasy of a sadistic bitch and she played it perfectly.
When the session ended, we dropped the role playing and became friends once
again. I made a video with Kyla where I was her victim and I think it's a good
one. Besides showcasing her skill as a dominating wrestler, we were both
creative with the dialogue and there is some humor in it.

There are several other women that stood out as superb session providers. It's
not an easy thing to do. Obviously, she needs to have skill on wrestling which
is rare among all people, especially women. She also has to have an engaging
personality. One such wrestler was the legendary Vegas Amazon Gabrielle Hames.
She was a big strong woman, about six feet tall and close to 200 lbs of lean
hard muscle. Despite her size and muscularity, she still had a pretty feminine
look.

I was told to be careful what I asked for with her because she would deliver
it. Sometimes one's fantasy does not transfer to reality as expected. I
requested, as I usually did, for complete wrestling domination and Gabrielle
delivered it in spades. With her size and strength advantage, she could easily
defeat me by merely overpowering me, but Gabby was a skilled wrestler. She
applied a variety of tough holds including a number of combination holds. He
like to use her long powerful legs to apply head or body scissors while using
her arms to apply headlocks, hammerlocks or full nelsons. She would pressure
them to my limit and slightly somewhat above it. For the first time in a
session, I actually felt fear. Not the fear that should would actually injure
me, although she was certainly capable of it, but rather the fun kind of fear
one would feel when riding on a roller coaster. It was an incredable
experience.

Its a good thing I had her come to my hotel room, rather than meeting her
somewhere else. My plan was to go down to the casino and play blackjack after
the session. But Gabrielle took every bit of energy I had. When she left I
slept for a good three hours before I could do anything. It was definitely the
toughest beating I ever received on a session and I loved it. I always knew
that she was a professional and an expert in doling out painful wrestling
punishment without injuring her victim.

There were a couple of other woman that stood out as among my favorites. One
of them is still active. I am speaking of Nikki Fierce. I met her her in Vegas
as well. Vegas is a great city for sessions. There are plenty of good local
women and the traveling wrestlers go there often. Why shouldn't they? They can
have a vacation paid for by providing a few sessions. Also we guys usually
have plenty of time available in the city that is active 24 hours a day, to
schedule a session.

Anyways, I somehow got away from talking about Nikki. Since I am too lazy to
rewrite or edit this discourse, I will just continue from where I left off
about here. This is not difficult because all I mentioned was her name. She
could be a great session wrestler or a moronic alien from some yet
undiscovered planet that survives from the energy she receives from defeated
schmoes.

So now I will discuss her sessioning abilities from my point of view. I cannot
discuss this from anyone else's point of view because I am me and not them. It
was the great philosopher Rosseau the said "I wrestle, therefor I am." By the
way, do you notice any difference on this essay since I just got high on pot?
You might enjoy the rest of this if you were also high as well. If you need to
buy pot, try contacting Joel from Musclette. If he has been released from
prison for his cocaine bust, he is probably dealing pot now. After all his
services for arranging sessions is no longer in demand due to the modern use
of the Internet.

So now, after deviating quite a bit, it really is time to talk about Nikki. I
apologize to her about this delay because she really is a top notch 270. She
came to my room, and as usual in a hotel, I put the mattress on the floor. She
was a cute woman with a definate " punk" appearance. She was heavily tattoed.
Normally, I don't like a lot of tattoos on a woman, but it did fit her
personality to a tee Nikki was a very skilled wrestler well versed in the use
of pro type wrestling holds. We all know that pro wrestling is a show and that
the matches are not truly competitive. But the holds are very successful in
controlling and hurting the victim if properly applied with sufficient force.
The amount of force is closely monitored by an experienced wrestler like
Nikki. She applied sufficient force to control me, keep me in a reasonable
amount of pain and make it difficult, if not impossible for me to escape. This
is my favorite type of session. Many session wrestlers use only a few moves,
usually scissors, grapevines and school girl pins. While I enjoy those holds,
I prefer it when they use a wide variety of holds and that I don't know what
hold will be applied next until I am trapped in it. She was proficient in the
use of my favorite hold, the figure four headscissors. I love the feeling of
being trapped between a woman's calf and thigh. Calf muscles have always been
the biggest turn on for me on a fit woman's body. Why that Is I don't know,
but Nikki had very shapely solid calves. Some dairy farmers also have nice
calves, but that kind doesn't interest me and I have no idea why I even
mentioned that, Nikki has a great personality and sense of humor. She is also
quite a good actress and role player which absolutely enhanced the session.
This concludes the portion about Nikki Sorry about all the lugubrious
interruptions, but I have trouble focusing on just one topic. This is also the
first time in the entire history of this website that anyone has been both
literate and stupid enough to use the word "lugubrious,"

Another fascinating woman with whom I have had several sessions is Lady
Victoria. She has worked as a professional wrestler for many years working the
Indy circuit. Since that doesn't pay very well, she chose to augment her
income by engaging in sessions. My sessions with her were enjoyable and
different than those I have had with any other woman.

First of all, we did not role play or engage in the wrestling domination type
of session that I usually seek. But her personality was so friendly and nice
that we became friends. Even though I no longer engage in sessions and she is
restored or at least semi retired, we still stay in touch. Victoria is
interested in writing a book about her experiences as a session wrestler and I
might help her with the writing or editing of the material. Most people are
unaware of the subculture of session wrestling and I wonder if a book like
this could be successful. My seaside with Vic are semi-comp and she employs
the pro wrestling type of holds. She also tells me fascinating things about
pro wrestling, how one becomes successful in it and even some behind the
scenes little known info about the WWE. She is friends with pro wrestler Al
Snow, who was a popular pro wrestler who usually played a crazy guy. (
remember Al Snow and head, the part of a doll?

She often travelled with another female wrestler and I got to session with
both of them. Also if she liked her client, the sessions ran way overtime. If
she didn't have another session booked for a while, my session would last from
1.5 to 2 hours. Quite a value for the standard price of a one woman one hour
session.

The women that Victoria brought were all excellent, any of which could provide an excellent
session by themselves.  One was Little Jeannie, another pro wrestler. Jeanne was the best pro
style wrestler I ever meant and a lot of fun to be with. She stretched by body like a gunny doll
and was able to trap me in a huge variety of holds. Again I must state that pro style holds are
very effective if the aggressor can apply them. Jeanne was a master at applying complicated
combination holds that completely tied me up. In order to apply these holds the aggressor must
have a significant advantage in strength , and/or skill, and Jeanne had both. The other women I
met through Victoria also had skills and were all attractive athletic women that sincerely
enjoyed wrestling and were good at it. 


I live close to the guy who operates Utopia Video Co at a local video store that carries the L
Scott wrestling videos including his. His name is Kip and he brings women into town to make the
videos. His videos are top notch. The women vary in wrestling skill, but he teaches the
inexperienced ones enough to make a video. The women he uses are all gorgeous ranging from
bodybuilder to ones with a more fitness competitor type build. 



Sometimes he would set up a session for me with the women. The additional income made the trip
into town more worthwhile for the woman as she got my session money in addition to whatever Kip
paid her   I was the first session client for many of these women and I am an ideal guy to start
with. I show up on time, pay her, treat her with respect and am easy to beat. Many of these
women provided good sessions even though they might be relatively unknown in the sessioning
world. 


My favorite of them was a woman named Panther who is available on one of the Utopia videos.
She is an English woman, tall, fit,attractive and an excellent wrestler. She was a former
professional ballet dancer that got too muscular to work as a ballet dancer. As you might
imagine, she had awesome legs and as the ZZ Top song goes, she knows how to use them. 


My sessioning days are over due to age and health issues, but I still follow the scene as much
as possible online  Diana's site offers lots of material, but I miss the old days when the chat
room and message boards were more active. Members can check this out in the archives.  I still
watch my hidden collection of videos. I am happily married and do not want my wife to find them.
I have kept my double life secret from my family for over thirty years and will continue to do
so. If she found my videos, she would probably be very upset. If she found the one with Kyla and
me, she would probably file for divorce


It is true that I have spent quite a bit of money on my wrestling fetish over the years, but I
was an avid golfer, I would probably have spent even more. The only difference, of course is
that golf is socialy acceptable while mixed wrestling is not. It has not affected my lifestyle
or that of my family. We  have a decent paid in full house and two paid in full decent cars.
Both my children went to college. We have everything we need and some of the things we want 


The money I have spent on mixed wrestling has come from two sources   I had an ECR at work,
(embezzled cash reserve) and the money I got from running a small bookmarking business taking
bets on football and basketball. I have really enjoyed all aspects of the mixed wrestling scene
and hope that my writing has contributed to it. 


Well thats about it with my relationship with mixed wrestling which had existed for over fifty
years. I hope you enjoyed reading about it. I sure have enjoyed living it.