<!East side girls>
<! By Jed Venture, jedventurer@yahoo.com>
<! By Jed Venture, jedventurer@yahoo.com>
Author's note: this is a work of fiction. The characters, the situation, and especially
the physics of it all are made up. Do
not try this at home! Anyone attempting
to recreate this scenario deserves whatever awful thing happens to them.
Part I: Lured In
So I walked into it.
Even knowing what they were like, and suspecting their capacity for poor
judgment, still I walked right into the middle of them and gave them the first
shot. But I'm a guy, you know? I've been a truant officer on the tough east
side for a long time, and girls don't phase me.
The girl's name is Stacey. She's a senior, or would be if she ever
attended classes. I knew her older
sister Jennifer when she was in school, and Stacey is definitely following in her sibling's slacker
footsteps.
I pull up in front of the post-war aluminum sided
house. The lawn is uncut, the place
looks as if it hasn't seen a paint brush since it was built. No surprise ' a young single mom, two
late-teenaged daughters, no male influence around the house. I push open the screen door and walk in, no
knocking. I know mom's at work, and I
don't want to warn my quarry that I'm here.
I walk into a small living room. To my left is a doorway into an equally small
kitchen, separated from the living room by swinging western-style barroom
doors. To my surprise, mom is in the
kitchen, washing up. Not to my surprise,
Stacey is in the living room watching TV.
So is her older sister Jennifer.
Time to go through the motions. "Stacey, this is the fifth time this month
you haven't shown up in school." Stacey
keeps her eyes glued to the TV, her jaw working on a wad of gum. Jennifer, sprawled out on the couch with her
long legs splayed out in front of her, rolls her eyes.
Stacey is tall ' already the same height as I am,
and probably still growing. She's blonde,
but a color of blonde that nobody was born with. She's wearing low-slung faded jeans and a low
cut, high midriff knit top. She's got a
nice figure, and she likes to show a lot of skin. I steal a glance away from my clipboard '
confirmed, no bra. Jennifer snorts,
rolling her eyes again.
Jennifer is just a little taller than I am. While her sister is slender and curved,
Jennifer is athletic ' or would be, if she ever got off the couch. She has broad shoulders and hips, but with
her height and long legs she's avoided ungainliness. She's wearing faded jeans, a loose
sweatshirt, and lots of makeup in garish colors. Her hair, dyed a bright orange, is pulled
back tight from her face.
Mom comes out of the kitchen, wiping her hands. She's young, bottle-blonde, and
overweight. "I'm sure the problem is in
your records," she says. "My girls are
good girls and good students."
"Your girl is failing every class," I say. "She's going to end up either a perpetual
senior, or a dropout like her over-achieving sister here." Which gets more rolled eyes from Jennifer.
"I don't like your tone of voice," mom says. "Maybe if you spoke with a little more
respect to the children, you'd ' "
"Mom, forget it," Jennifer says. "We can handle this."
"I just don't like this man coming in here and ' "
"Mom. I said,
forget it." Jennifer works her gum hard,
glaring wide-eyed at her mother. "Go
back in the kitchen." Not to my
surprise, mom turns on her heel and disappears into the kitchen, muttering
under her breath.
Jennifer looks at me with the expression of someone
who's too-cool-for-school, addressing a hopeless loser. "Listen.
Mr. Truancy man, or whatever you are.
Make it easier on all of us, get in your beater car and go back to that
dump you call a high school. We'll all
be a lot happier." Stacey keeps her eyes glued on the TV ' old
Looney Tunes cartoons, Bugs Bunny making a fool of a bald hunter with a lisp.
Without a word, I step in front of the TV, reach
down and switch it off.
"Hey!" Stacey
shoots to her feet, for the first time showing signs of life. "I was watching that." She tries to brush past me, fails, and
reaches around me to get at the TV set.
I stand my ground, swatting her hand away from the switch. She reaches again, trying with her body to
push me back against the TV. Her breasts
press against my chest, her legs push against mine. Finally I grab her wrist, yanking it away
from the set. For a moment ' just an
instant, really ' she falls against me.
Then she pushes off against my chest and retreats to her chair, rubbing
her wrist.
"Mr. Truancy man, you've got yourself a boner," Stacey
says. She smirks at me, hands at her
crotch.
"God, what a pervert. What are you ' thirty?" Jennifer says.
"It's a natural physical reaction," I say. The truth is, my heart is pounding; that
moment of body contact with the slim blonde has just dumped a load of adrenals
into my system. "Stacey, you're on the
wrong road. Straighten up or you'll end
up just like your sister ' or your mother."
"Don't you go there," Jennifer says, rising lazily
to her feet. "You keep our mother out of
this." She heads toward the kitchen.
When she is one step past me, she reaches back
behind me and switches the TV set back on.
Daffy Duck's voice fills the room, telling someone how "dethpicable"
they are. Jennifer stands there, mocking
me with an smugly insolent, vacuous smile.
I turn toward the TV, reach down and shut it
off. When I turn back, Stacey is
standing behind me.
"I think you should apologize for what you said
about our mother," Stacey says.
"I'm sorry your mother is a waitress," I say. I know it's mean-spirited the moment I say
it, but these girls have got the better of me.
They're reacting to me like I was one of their peers, rather than an adult,
a better.
Jennifer puts her hand on my shoulder and pushes
me. She's strong ' I have to take a step
to regain balance. "Apologize for
real," she says.
"Putting your hands on an officer of the school
system is the same as assault," I say.
"Then what's this?" Stacey says, shoving me hard
from behind, hands on my shoulder blades.
I stumble forward; Jennifer grabs my suit jacket with both hands,
pulling me against her like a dockside tough.
"And this?" she says.
I'm about to grasp her wrists with both hands and
rescue the fabric of my suit when my arms are pulled behind my back. "If that was assault, this must really
be bad," Stacey says, levering my arms
up behind my back. For a moment I'm on
my toes and off-balance, and in that moment Jennifer pulls me forward, locking
my head under her arm. Suddenly I'm in a
very untenable position, bent over at the waist with Stacey on my back and my
head in a tightening headlock.
"Girls ' what are you doing?" It's the mom, back into the living room.
"He got fresh, mom.
Go back in the kitchen."
"I don't want anything broken. Take it outside."
I cannot believe my ears. Her daughters have attacked an officer of the
school system, and all she can think to say is "take it outside?"
Enough of this.
I jerk an arm free from Stacey's half-assed half-nelson and grasp
Jennifer's arm. Stacey, reaching over me
to recapture my arm, stumbles into me; I stumble into Jennifer; and down we
go. Jennifer falls backward with me on
top of her and Stacey on top of me. As
we land, Jennifer's legs wrap around me and she rolls to her side. I'm on my stomach, one arm pinned in the circle
of Jennifer's legs. Stacey is sitting on
top of me, has recaptured my free arm and is pulling it up between my shoulder
blades.
"Squeeze, Jennifer," Stacey says. "Just like Big Hair Lady."
"Big Hair Lady is a TV character," I say. "She's not real." Big Hair Lady is a fictional super villain
who uses her powerful legs to dispatch her victims with vicious crushing
constriction. I never watch her show.
But Jennifer is real, and I feel it when she locks
her ankles together and applies pressure with her thighs. Her legs are locked across my stomach, with
my arm trapped between my side and her crotch.
When she squeezes, taking a breath suddenly requires work.
I need to get to my feet. I pull my legs up, hard work with Stacey's
weight on my back and Jennifer's legs grinding away at my midsection. After some grunting work with my face smashed
into the carpet, I get my knees underneath me.
Jennifer's squeezing is having an effect ' I'm short of breath, and I
can't fill my lungs with her pressing in on me.
But I can tell she's weakening.
"Big Hair Lady is so a real person," Stacey
says. "It's reality TV."
"Maybe so," I say, trying to rise to my feet, "but
your sister is no Big Hair Lady. She's
now a future felon." I'm surprised at
how hard it is just to talk, with the girl's legs still locked around me. As I rise slowly to my feet, Jennifer takes a
long, deep breath, sets her legs, and squeezes.
Hard.
She catches me on an exhale, and the air rushes from
my lungs faster than I had intended. I
sink back to my knees, momentarily whoozy.
I'm bent over with Jennifer's legs, suddenly
python-strong, wrapped around my body and squeezing for all they're worth. I can tell she's not strong enough to do to
me what Big Hair Lady does to her prey on TV; what's more, she's weakening
quickly. But she's slowed me down a
bit.
"I'll see you in jail," I say. Weakly.
Stacey leaps to her feet and runs into the kitchen. Smart girl, I think; put a stop to this
before you're in too much trouble.
Then Stacey returns, with a handful of black plastic
garbage bags ' the thirty-gallon variety with built-in ties. Jennifer and I watch as Stacey stuffs one bag
into the other, then the third inside the second. She thrusts her hand inside, opening up an
improvised three-ply black plastic bag.
Suddenly I have a very bad feeling about this.
Stacey kneels in front of me, holding the bag upside
down. Like a hood.
With all the strength in my back and legs, I lever
myself to an upright position, dragging my still constricting attacker with
me. I get one foot beneath me, rising to
a half crouch and backing away from the slim blonde and her unconventional
weapon. She rises to her feet and darts
around behind me. Darkness descends with
the industrial smell of plastic as she pulls the triple-thick bag over my head
from behind. I feel her hands on my
shoulders and then I'm falling backward, Jennifer losing her grip on me then
quickly regaining it as she rolls to keep up with the action.
I land on my back in moist darkness and with
Jennifer's legs again coiled around me.
I try to sit up, to get my head within reach of my hands so I can remove
the bag, already stale with exhaled air.
Then a soft vise clamps on either side of my head, and presses the slick
plastic down against my face. I try to
sit up, and can't. I try to roll, but
I'm held firmly in place. My heart
starts to pound triple-time as my next breath of air doesn't fill my lungs '
I'm breathing in my own exhale.
With my free hand I claw at my head. My hand runs into a denim barrier; the
vise-like pressure around my head is Stacey's thighs, on either side of my
head. The smooth surface pressing down
is her firm, denim-covered butt. She's
bagged me, and is smothering me with her ass.
All while her sister does her best to squeeze the life from me between
her legs.
With the weight of two healthy young women locked
onto me, I can not move. The plastic
against my face is wet with the moisture from my breath, and the air I can
barely suck in is stale and thin. My
lungs are burning, caving in on themselves for lack of oxygen. I kick against the carpet, my fingers
scrabble ineffectually at the blue jeaned legs wrapped just tightly enough
around me, my face is mashed against the sensuously curved contours of Stacey's
perfectly deadly ass. I'm fading away, and I am incredibly aroused.
God, they had it planned, I think. I walked into a perfectly executed trap. That's the only explanation that makes sense
to me as a darkness deeper than the inside of a plastic bag rushes in with a
thunderous muffling roar.
Part II: Deathtrap
I'm surprised to wake up. My head is killing me, and my body
hurts. My arms are aching. And I'm cold
But I'm alive.
I try to get up, and find I cannot. Experimental moving around reveals that my
hands are tied behind my back, almost up between my shoulder blades. That explains the aching arms.
I open my eyes.
I'm lying on a concrete floor.
All around me are cement-block walls, bare light bulbs. I'm in the basement. That explains the general overall soreness '
"those bitches must have dragged me down
the stairs', I think.
I'm naked.
"You're awake.
Get up." There's a sharp jerk on
my hands, pulling me roughly to my knees.
I look up ' a rope descends from behind me, loops over a ceiling joist,
and then back down to a chair several feet from me where Jennifer sits, holding
the loose end. She pulls in more rope
and I scramble to my feet to keep my shoulders from being pulled from their
sockets.
"I'm up," I say.
"Go easy on the rope."
Another sharp upward jerk. "You don't tell me what to do. You've already put me through enough. My legs are going to hurt tomorrow, because
of you."
"You attacked me, missy. And now you've added kidnapping and unlawful
imprisonment to your rap sheet."
She mimics me silently, her face contorting as if
she were complaining like a small child.
"Boo hoo. You know you came in
your pants upstairs."
She snorts, almost a laugh, at my expression. "Yeah.
Sometime while I was grinding away at you and my sister was sitting on
your face? You spewed inside your
sansabelts. And you didn't even know
it." She snorts again.
A touch against the back of my knee. I look behind me ' it's Stacey, pushing a
giant black donut against me. It's a
truck tire inner tube, a great black torus two to three feet high and five feet
across. The hole in the center is no
more than a foot or so across. "Get up."
"What?"
A sharp upward tug on my arms. "Get up on the tube. Jeez, what are you, deaf?"
I put one knee on top of the tube and shift my
weight forward. There's very little
give; it's over-inflated. The balancing part
is tricky as I attain a kneeling position on the unstable surface with no arms
to use in balancing myself. Kneeling, I
turn and look over my shoulder at Jennifer.
Another tug ' my shoulders are burning already. "On your feet."
I rise to my feet and turn to face her, straddling
the center hole and shifting my weight from foot to foot. Jennifer reels in the slack in the rope ' if
I slip into the center hole or fall off the inner tube, my arms will be pulled
from their sockets.
"Very ingenious," I admit.
A snort from Jennifer. She stands up and approaches, always keeping
tension in the rope so I cannot move from the center of the donut. She comes right up to the edge of the tube,
holding the rope taut. The rope rises
straight up from between my shoulder blades, over the strut directly over my
head, and then almost straight down in front of me. I don't know what's coming next, but I'm
getting another bad feeling about all this.
Stacey comes around the tube, grasps the rope at the
level of my waist. Jennifer release a
little slack and Stacey does a quick manipulation with both hands. When she is done, a small noose has appeared
in the middle of the rope. Right about
waist level.
Stacey leaps gracefully onto the tube, steadying
herself with a hand against my stomach.
I can't help myself ' my member stirs, and Jennifer smirks. "If you make a move, I'll pull your arms out
of their sockets," she says, and grabs the rope high up, maintaining
tension. With her arms extended over her
head, her breasts are thrust outward against the fabric of her sweatshirt. They are magnificent. My organ stirs again.
Stacey grabs the small noose in her left hand and
guides it over my erect member. Mindful
of Jennifer's warning, I watch in silence.
She deftly slips the lower edge of the noose under my balls; at the
touch of her hand, my over-stimulated organ almost thrums with tension. A dull ache radiates from my balls with
frustrated arousal.
With my genitals completely encompassed by the
noose, she gently pulls the knot snug against the base of my organ and hops
down. The surface of the tire shifts
with her weight gone, and I shift with it, stepping about the center hole; as
my hands move in an attempt to maintain my balance, the motion transmits to a gentle
tug around my manhood.
I look up ' there's almost no slack in the rope
attaching my bound hands and my captive organs.
So I'm standing naked on top of a giant black donut,
with a noose around my manhood, the rope extending from it up over my head,
over a ceiling strut and down again to my bound wrists. One rope, two knots, one very uncomfortable
situation.
Everything I've tried so far has worked out
wrong. It's time to take a different
tack.
"Okay," I say.
"You have my undivided attention."
Stacey peers between my feet into the well at the
center of the donut. "I recommend you
stay very, very still," she says. She
leans against the side of the tube, looking up at me. She bounces her weight on the tube, at first
gently, then with more vigor. Two, three
times she throws herself against it, hinging at the waist and with her arms
outstretched. At the third bounce, the
whole tube flexes beneath me; my feet slip into the funnel shape of the central
hole and the noose tightens around my balls.
My heart leaps into my throat.
Before I can fall, I brace my feet against the side and quickstep myself
up to the surface of the tube.
I stand very still, trying to calm my pounding heart
and get my breathing under control. If I
had fallen . . . it's about three feet to the floor, and I don't have three
feet of slack in the rope. I think of
all my body weight plunging down against the nooses. . . around my wrists and
testicles. . . and shudder.
Stacey raises herself up again, arms outstretched. .
. I start to shout ' and she subsides slowly, with a sly smile. She walks back to her sister with a very
seductive sway in her slim hips and a knowing smile to me over her shoulder.
Jennifer sits down in her chair again, legs
stretched out, arms crossed under her breasts.
"Cold down here," she remarks, looking at my crotch.
I don't need to look down: "very," I say.
I clear my throat.
"You guys have made your point, whatever it is. I'm . . . sorry . . . for the way I came in
here and gave you attitude. I'm sorry
for dissing your mother ' and you. That
kind of thing won't happen again."
"You can say that again," Jennifer says, picking at
lint on her sweatshirt.
"What is that supposed to mean?"
"Just what I said: "you can say that again'".
"What more do you want from me? Do you want me to change your record? Excuse your sister from classes? There's only so much I can do."
"What I want you to do," Jennifer says, eyeing me
from beneath industrial-strength polymer eyelashes, "is to fall. Slowly."
I look at her.
Stacey looks at her sneakers, smiling a secret smile. Then she looks up at me sidelong, still
smiling.
Jennifer leans forward. She looks at her sister.
Stacey sways up to the tube again, her hands in the
back pockets of her jeans, her hips thrust forward and her shoulders
rolling. She leans over the tube, still
looking up at me and smiling. She
reaches between my feet, into the funnel at the center of the tube.
I look down, into the hole over which I am
standing. Halfway down the side, the
inner tube's filler valve sticks out into the hole. Stacey's hand makes four twisting motions,
then she straightens up, holding a bit of shiny brass between her fingers and
thumb: the valve.
A faint but urgent hissing sound issues from the
inner tube beneath my feet.
She's pulled the plug. My support is deflating out from underneath
me. As it deflates, I'll be lowered
toward the floor, stopping my descent when I reach the end of the rope.
Then, I'll dangle.
"Fall.
Slowly." Jennifer
pronounces.
The air rushes from the narrow fill-tube like a tiny
fury, screaming its high pitched rage.
It's coming out under great pressure, but it's a narrow opening. I look up at the rope. I guess I have about six inches worth of
slack before my body weight starts to pull on the noose. I hope it will take a long time for the tube
to deflate enough to lower me to that point.
But already the surface beneath my feet feels mushy; I shift my weight,
trying to find equilibrium.
"How far are you going to let this go?" I ask.
"All the way," she answers.
I swallow hard; my throat is suddenly very dry. "It'll kill me."
She shrugs.
"No it won't. You may wish it
killed you. But it'll probably just maim
you."
"People know where I am."
"Nobody's coming to rescue you. There's no TV superheroes on this side of
town to come in and save the day." She's
staring at me hard, mouth slack, eyes wide.
"And we're going to stay here the whole time, so you're not going to
save yourself."
"Okay if I try anyway? It gives me something to do."
She shrugs, looks away. "Suit yourself."
The hissing continues. I can definitely feel a slight upwelling of
black rubber around my feet ' I'm sinking into the tube as it loses
tension. I can also feel a slight upward
pressure against the bottom of my balls as I sink down against the noose.
The mom comes in with a basket of laundry. She averts her eyes, sidling along the
perimeter of the room. She doesn't want
to see this, but she's not adverse enough, or brave enough, to stop it.
So it's just me and her hard-eyed painted teenaged
daughters.
"What happens after I reach the end of the rope?"
"You hang there."
Inspecting her sweatshirt again.
"I guessed that much. Then what?"
She shrugs.
"I dunno. You hang for a
while. We may leave you there all
day. I haven't thought about it."
I look at Stacey, silently following Jennifer's
lead. Despite my present extremis, I
think about Stacey's thighs, clasped tightly around my head, her ass pressed
against my face. And amazingly, I'm
aroused again. Jennifer rolls her eyes
and sticks out her tongue as if gagging.
Stacey stands there, hips forward, eyeing me. She hooks her thumbs in the waist of her
low-slung jeans, pulling downward. She
rocks on her heels, head cocked to one side.
"I think he likes me," she says.
Jennifer snorts.
"He sure likes something."
"What are we going to do with him when it's
over?"
"Jeez." Heavy
sigh. "I don't know, okay? Let him hang for a while. He won't be much use to anyone by the time
he's done."
"I dunno."
Stacey eyes me critically. "I bet
I could figure something out."
With an explosive sigh, the mom weighs in on the
conversation. She gathers up her laundry
basket and hustles past her two ruthless daughters, her head down and her eyes
fixed on the clean clothes in her arms.
I'm watching Stacey, but I'm very aware of the noose
at the base of my member. I feel it slip
a little more snugly around me. I sway
for a moment, almost losing my balance; I have to step quick a couple times
around the perimeter of the funnel. The
surface of the tube is mushy, clinging to my feet. I panic for an instant, but regain my
feet. I'm lower now, much lower,
noticeably farther from the ceiling joist.
And the upward pressure from the noose is real against my balls. Infuriatingly, it's a pleasurable sensation,
like slender fingers caressing them.
Jennifer, not missing anything, smirks.
"I'm not so stupid, you know," Stacey says. "I came up with the idea of the bags." Jennifer silently rolls her eyes.
Now I can feel the pressure from the noose pressing
in on all sides of me, gently still like a friendly hand. Like Stacey's hand would feel. I
look up ' there's no slack left in the rope.
I look down ' my feet are disappearing into the surface of the inner
tube; it's black rubber quicksand, sucking me down. A moment of panic sends my heart leaping
wildly, and I have to fight down the urge to jump, to push against the
tube. I'm afraid now to try even to
shift my feet; lifting one foot may just drive the other deeper into the tube,
hastening the time when I'm supported only by my balls. I watch in sick silence as my legs are slowly
swallowed by the rising tide of black, and the small noose tightens smoothly
and efficiently around my manhood.
I have to make some effort. Stacey -- if I can separate Stacey from her
sister, I may be able to convince her to help me.
"Stacey," I say.
"Why do you let her put you down like that? You came up with the way to capture me; that
took quick thinking. You have a head on
your shoulders. You're better than
her. Look at her ' out of High School
two years and still living at home. You
could be something ' another Big Hair Lady, the real deal. Not a low-rent slacker wannabee, a poseur,
like your sister. She thinks she's a
badass, but she's just a loser on the way down.
Do you want to let her drag you down with her?"
"Maybe I am a slacker," Jennifer says. "But your ass is up there, and my ass is down
here. You're a few seconds from being
hung by your balls; you got beat up by a couple of slacker poser
teenagers. So I guess that makes me
badder than you."
Stacey examines my feet, which are steadily
disappearing into the envelopment of the inner tube. There's almost no support beneath me now, and
I'm constantly shifting my weight in an effort to stay upright. The noose is tight around my organ and my
balls; it's pulling the whole package upward toward my stomach as I sink at a stately
pace into the tube. My organ is engorged,
throbbing from the nearly constant stimulation it has undergone. But it's also being choked by the tightening
noose. The dull ache of frustrated
arousal hits me, hard; if I were standing, I would be doubled over. But all I can do is groan.
Jennifer's eyes are riveted on my face. I return her gaze, trying to keep my gorge
from rising. I realize that this is
probably the first real thing she's ever done in her life. For a moment, I feel like saying "you're
welcome" for providing her first accomplishment.
The rope is rod-straight, no slack left at all. My member, tumescent, is choked nearly
black. The cold air moving against it is
maddening. My testicles are crushed up
against it on either side, trapped by the rope just like my arm had been trapped
against my sides by Jennifer's strong legs.
Pain, red-hot and throbbing, radiates from my groin throughout my body;
the ache is spreading from my loins into my gut. I think I am about to throw up from the pain
when suddenly I realize I have lost contact with the inner tube and I am
dangling. I'm surprised ' I had expected
a lurch, or at the least to be set swinging, but the transition is too gradual,
too gentle, for that; one moment I am in contact with the sticky black rubber,
the next my feet have cold air beneath them.
The knowledge that all my weight is suspended from my arms and my
tortured balls sends a thrill down my spine, and new paroxysms of pain rushing
through my body.
"Mr. Truant Officer, you're hanging," Stacey says
softly. She pulls the remains of the
inner tube out from under me, sending me swaying, my feet several inches from
the floor. Without the pressure of the
rubber beneath my feet, my legs bicycle involuntarily, seeking support that no
longer exists. I cannot help staring down
at my organ, distended, almost pinched off at the base, my balls flattened up
against it, everything purple and black.
"Besides," Jennifer says, "we're sisters. Nobody comes between sisters." She stands and walks around me slowly,
examining me as I hang there, twitching in humiliated agony. My insides have turned to water; I can barely
hear over the rush of blood in my ears; my entire being is centered around the
solid throbbing mass of pain camped in my gut.
My legs extend downward, thigh muscles straining, my toes reaching for
the support of the cold concrete below, inches away but forever out of reach.
Kill me now, I think. I cannot speak the words, my jaw is clenched
so tightly my face muscles have locked.
"No mercy for you," Stacey whispers into my
ear. She nudges me playfully with her
shoulder, sending me spinning slowly first one way then the other. She saunters toward the stairs, watching me
over her shoulder. Jennifer follows,
walking backward, her hard eyes fastened on me to the last. She reaches for the light switch; for a
moment she is silhouetted in the doorway by the light coming down the
stairs. Then the door closes.
I am alone in the cold damp and the dark. My feet dangle inches from the floor, I sway gently in whatever eddies of air come
in through the leaky windows. I am
immersed in tides of pain washing over me from my ruined manhood. Whatever it is that made me a man has been
crushed, both by the rope knotted so tightly around my genitals it may not be
removable, and by the casual ease with which I was lured in, bested and beaten
by my young captors. Suspended between
my past and my ruined future, between who I was and what will become of me, I
wait in timeless agony for them to return and spell my fate.
I fear they intend to let me live.