The Voice Of Gaze
by first timer
His acceptance into a matriarchal society.


"Are you here of your own choosing"?

"Yes mistress"!

"Are you willing to be emasculated and used as we see fit"?

"Yes mistress"!

The society of Cybele a matriarchal society of females devoted to the
educating of the male as to his true nature!

As I stood naked before her desk while writing she glanced up at my huge
hardon then to my balls noting its size and the possible weight.of my
testicles. Behind her desk on the wall was a large plaque reading. "The
strength of a male is lent to him by a female"!

How true those words read. A feeling of pride flushed through me as I stood
before this young woman eager to be accepted into their society to be a part
of their world! My male ego long ago broken by my first girlfriend in high
school who easily demonstrated her female superiority over me, a
psychologically traumatic event in my life as to the inferiorly male. It was
arrogance on my part the night she took me by the balls to resolve an argument
we had had earlier. Ordering me to apologize or she'd crush them! Grabbing her
wrist and forearm my fake masculine world ended that night! That skinny 14 yr.
old 90 lb. girl instilled in me the lessons of how delicate and fragile a male
was compared to a female. That was 20 years ago I guess and now here I am now
hoping to fulfill my natural yearnings to serve!

Pushing the paperwork away she leaned back in her chair with a pen to her
mouth smiling. "Well bill I've read your earlier application. I certainly
think you're Cybele material. But of course you must understand not all our
males are used by us females! You could be used by our other males! Have you
ever heard the word. "Gallae"?

"No mistress"!

"Well a gallae is a castrated male used to service other bigger stronger males
who still have their testicles! It's sort of speak a way to keep the herd
satisfied sexually also as not to bother us until we choose one or two to
service a member! Now I'm not saying you'd be castrated for this purpose but
its a possibility depending on your attitude and performance in your six-month
probationary period but once you're passed that time period your safe! If you
agree to all this bill. Then I welcome you to our world and your new life as a
member of our society"!

Hearing those words my cock almost erupted in front of her! Not unnoticed by
her she said. "Go ahead use the waste basket over their then we'll get you an
orientation trainer"!

Embarrassed I quickly grabbed the waste basket and started jerking off while
she watched giggling with a big smile on her face at my balls which were
floppy back and forth between my legs! Turning looking at her she winked
saying with another devilish a little giggle. "I might see you up at the farm
next week big guy"! At that moment my balls pulled up followed by my grunting
discharge of cum! Over and over again I pumped and grunted into the waste
basket going down to one knee trembling weak until my balls were drained empty
feeling their weight dropping into their big sorry sac under me I was
finished! As always the shameful awareness of my male inadequacies washed
through me! My guilty glassy eyes said everything and she said with a knowing
voice. "It's all right for now bill. Were very liberal with our males like
yourself at this stage. But be warned enjoy it while you can because this
won't be tolerated by us in the future! Now go into the bathroom and clean
yourself up and the waste basket also"!

Picking up the phone. "Janet is Tosha their? Good tell her I've got a new one
for orientation and the farm. He's already halfway broken so he just needs a
little polishing ok"!

Tosha a tall muscular blond hair in a pony tale thirty something came in in
short shorts and high heels. With a half yellow T-shirt exposing her tan six
pack abs. The T-shirt stretched open just below her high riding firm tits.
Across its front said "Girl Power"! She came over looking me up and down then
pleasantly spoke. " Hi I'm Tosha your orientation trainer"! Reaching between
my legs she took my balls as one would normally shake a hand used them in the
same manner which seemed completely natural to me I suppose now that I was in
her care.

Chapter 2 The long drive

It was a day and a half drive to the farm from Virginia to up state New York.
Excited asking all types of questions of Tosha about the matriarchal society
of Cybele and the protocol expected of us males! So far this experience was
nothing of what I had expected. I was being treated as equals by these women
except for my nakedness from the waist down which did remind me of my status I
was rather enjoying my self! She explained how important grooming was
especially about keeping my cock and balls really razor smooth plus using
different types of powders to mask a males offenses odors suggesting I use
Summer radiance bronzing powder which she personally loves on her males
especially when she picks one to fuck!. She said she always looks for a good
smelling good looking piece of ass with big balls! Questioning me about my
abilitys to take a big strapon that, that definitely I'd be fucked by the
members sometimes as many as 20 women at a time especially the first night
when I would be introduced. Proudly I told her I once had accommodated a 20
incher from a woman in Florida but couldn't walk for a week! We both started
laughing about that. Then I asked her about the Gallae thing. She got real
quiet looking over at me than said. "I'm the one who castrates them you know"!
We traveled silently for an hour my cock sticking up hard thinking about me
sitting next to a real life Castratrix!

Glancing over at her every now and again pretending to be looking at something
or another out her window I could see her being a castratrix. Her long tan
legs and thighs showed muscular definition at rest. Her forearms and biceps
flexed with vascularity as she worked the steering wheel. God my heart was
pounding in rhythm with my cock and she noticed saying. "In back there's a
couple of towels get one and cover your cock head its leaking. I don't want
you ruining the front seat with your cum ok"! I pushed up leaning towards her
towards the back getting a towel she looking at my cock and balls as I did
with her free hand she cupped my balls! "You've got a pretty decent set of
testicles on you bill! Not a bad looking cock either! Were almost at the
halfway house we'll be stopping for the night! It'll be just me and you
together for the night! Would you like that bill"? Giving a cute shy little
girl giggle lightly squeezing my balls!

The place was way off the interstate somewhere. Explaining to me how the
society had numerous such places scattered throughout the country. Going up a
very bumpy dirt road she laughed out loud at the comical sight of my big old
hard cock bouncing and weaving to the bumps in the road. "God you guys! hahaha
you guys and your cocks and fucking balls! Gododd hahaha your hilarious all of
you"!

The headlights showed a scaled down version of small Victorian house. Turning
the car off Tosha leaned over to the glove box pushing my cock out of the way
with her elbow reached in got a remote control deliberately pushing back my
cock rubbing the length of her forearm across the underside of it causing a
moan from me. "OH Sorry big guy"! Hitting a few buttons the whole place lit up
inside and out! "Welcome to Forest Shadows billy. I love this place its so
beautiful isn't it? I can't wait for a nice hot bath! Ok now listen bill some
of your training is going to start right now understand? You will address me
as mistress Tosha from now on. You will obey every order I give you
understand"?

"Yes mistress Tosha"!

"Good now get out of the car and go wait for me on the porch"!

This was more like the relationship I had expected between a superior female
and a male. I felt comfortable on these grounds and eager to please her! I
waited with eyes and head down for her. It was cold very cold my balls were
feeling the sting of the approaching winter when she came up ordering. "Spread
your legs"! Doing so immediately she took my balls pulling them down to the
bottom of my sack fastened a tight gold scrotal ring around its neck squeezing
a small rivet through both ends with a pair of pliers making it permanently
part of me! When she was done it felt good. I was pleased with it it prevented
my balls from ever being able to pull up tight and would give me more staying
power while being used by the women! Tosha stood pointing my cock in the
direction of the car saying. "Go get my luggage from the trunk specially my
little overnight thingly then you can get something to eat while I we wait for
the water heater to heat up"!

Inside it was really warming up she had some music on singing along to an old
John Lennon song. "I'm losing you". Ignoring me other than to point upstairs
to where her luggage was to go. Upstairs I began opening her suit cases laying
out what I thought she would like to wear. Opening her little overnight
thingly it was filled with strapons of every size and shape but the harnesses
were not the normal type thing they were custom made of thick sturdy leather
straps indicating just how powerful a woman she was! Involuntarily my balls
pulled up with the ring on my scrotums neck for the first time! It was a
painful experience something I would have to be more careful about doing from
now on!

Back downstairs Tosha was pulling the cork from a wine bottle a small plate of
cheese and crackers in front of her. In a happy mood she turned smiling at me.
"Hold your cock up Billy boy so I can see your scrotal ring. It looks good on
you! Know what it means? It means you're now the property of our society all
our males wear one at least all the ones with balls"! She held out a piece of
cheese indicating for me to come to her closer taking me by the balls saying
"open wide" plopping it in my mouth. "now chew" God she was so charming I
couldn't believe she was the owner of all those strapons and a castratrix!
Curious I asked. "Mistress Tosha may I ask how many males have you castrated"?

The smile left her face! "DID I GIVE YOU PERMISSION TO SPEAK"????? Leaving go
of my balls grabbing my cock pulling it up towards her she slammed her knee up
into them! My world went dark!

I awoke being fucked my her over the back of the sofa! The sofa that was
originally in the center of the room was now up against the wall driven by her
powerful thrusts into me! "God she's killing me! She's fucking killing me with
her cock! She's going to killed me with her cock"! I cried! "Please mistress
Tosha don't kill me please mistress don't kill me"""! She was talking but it
wasn't her voice! It was the voice of a female demon or other person then her!
It said. "I GAZE I GAZE I GAZE TAKE THEE MORTAL MALE FEEL ME FEEL ME"!!

My world went dark again!

There was warm water! I was in warm water! Tosha was bathing me. Looking up at
her puzzled. "Mistress"? She put a finger to my lips. "Quiet now Billy boy
you've had a little accident of sorts your rectum is torn open pretty bad.
We'll have to stay here for a few days until you're able to walk! You remember
anything about it"?

"Yes mistress you were raping me mistress! I remember you were so strong I
thought you were going to kill me with it it was so big"!

"Yeah well I'm sorry about that bill. Sometimes I don't realize my own
strength! But you should be very proud of yourself you know you took the
biggest strapon I've got and you took it like a man. You should have no
trouble accommodating any member after last night male or female"!

"Male"?

Giggling at my surprise saying. "Of course silly sometimes we like watching
two males fighting with the loser being raped by the winner. It's very erotic
for us watching too big strong males testing their strength against each
other. Rubbing their hard cocks against each other until one gets the
advantage with brute strength ramming his cock in! Although I must tell you I
love watching the loser involuntarily ejaculate under the stronger male. Its
always so absolutely humiliating for him at being defeated and fucked in front
of a room full of women! We call it cock fight night! It's the second Saturday
of every month and you'll be participating you know! So you better start
working out Billy boy"!

Signaling me to get out of the tub helping me my legs weak I stepped out with
her handing me a towel. Looking back into the bath water it was pink from my
blood carefully rubbing the towel between my ass cheeks it came back red
looking at it she said I'll be right back! Coming back with one of her tampons
in hand ordered me to bend over the bathroom counter sink. As I did she took
hold of my balls while tearing the package open with her teeth still holding
me steady by the balls said! "Ok now this is going to hurt for a second or two
ok"! AAAAAALLLLLLLLL!!!!

"There you are Billy just like a proper twat with a tampon in your pussy"!

The next three days while my rectum recovered I practiced cunnilingus with her
teaching me how to stay on focus and in rhythm with a females impending
orgasmic signals. How to absolutely never ever leave her pussy until she was
done and to always linger cleaning her afterwards! I excelled at this
especially at hearing Tosha's! "YES YES OH YES YOU FUCKING BIG BALLED FUCKING
BITCH!! TONGUE FUCK MY PUSSY BITCH BOY""""!

With a light snow falling that morning we said our goodbyes to Forest Shadows
heading out for the final leg of our journey! I had a healthy hardon as we
left which she smile at saying. "Lets see if you can keep it hard until we get
their! I bet you can't buddy boy"! Sitting next to her I was almost sure I
could and said so! She laughed saying. "I'll tell you what if you can keep
that thing hard for the rest of the way I'll let you fuck me! If you can't I
get to castrate you! Bet? Well what about it? Your cock in my pussy for the
guaranteed fuck of your life or your balls hanging from my key chain"? Pushing
up leaning over offering her my cock she shook it saying. "Deal"!

After that we drove in silence with her glancing over every now and again
checking it. On my part I did the same thing but glancing at her dangling key
chain thinking of my balls hanging from it! Seeing it sag a little saying.
"Go-ahead you can pump it up all you want but if you accidentally cum you're
finished baby and those balls are mind"! The further north we traveled the
heavier the snow fell. We started seeing snow plow trucks with yellow whirling
lights on top. Seeing the tension in her arms as she gripped the wheel
concentrating on the road I said. "Maybe we should pull in to the next rest
stop and take a little break mistress"! Irritated looking over at me than to
my cock she said. "Look ass hole the bet was when we get their! If we get
snowed in your definitely going to lose your balls you stupid bitch"!

Another fifty miles we finally had to stop in a white out. Impossible to see
further then the cars hood ornament she slowly pulled over. At that moment I
knew I had lost my balls to her! Turning the windshield wippers off the snow
slowly concealing our privacy she reached over between my legs lifting my
balls holding them looking in my eyes. "Well your still hard bill I give you
that but you know as well as I its just a matter of time now don't you agree?
I tell you what Billy Boy I'm going to let you fuck me anyhow then I'll
castrate you ok"?

The only sound was that of the quiet humming motor as she mounted me taking me
in easily her pussy muscles incredibly working up and down on my shaft without
her mound moving I came over and over her pussy milking my balls dry until I
couldn't take it anymore trying to push her by her wide hips off me she
slapped me hard across the face! "I'm not finished yet bitch"! She continued
using me until satisfied then lifted off! My cock looked like a raw piece of
meat as it flopped over. Giggling she kissed me on the forehead then reached
between my legs grabbing my balls pulling down on them lowering my body
mounted my face! "Clean me"!

As I was cleaning her pussy she was reaching over to the back seat getting
stuff from her overnight bag all the stuff she needed to castrate me!

So right then and their in a car in the middle of a snow storm I was castrated
by a woman and made into a Gallae for the males of the Society of Cybele.

The End