Where To?
by Goupil


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I was just deciding to take the elevator to get to the floor I needed to
be on, when a woman ran out coming from out of nowhere it seemed and
wished to come into the elevator.
She was a real business woman, very self-confident and also very
beautiful, dressed in a business suit, wearing high-heels, wearing her
blond hair tied up. Young looking, ageless... like a goddess.
She made me anxious just by her presence.
'Where to?' I asked politely, meaning what floor was she going to.
'This is just a pretext for being with you,' she said, smiling at my
naïveté I believe.
Of course I stuttered and clumsily moved to press a button. Where was I
going to? What floor and on what business? My mind had been like washed
off by her simple presence... I paused for a few seconds thinking in
front of the buttons, my mind a blank, but it seemed to me like time had
frozen and I had stayed in that position for hours on end. Finally I
decided to push a button I didn't even see, let alone remember where I
had chosen to go. I had no idea as to where or when the elevator was
going to stop. How much time did we have then?
What was happening to me? I was like in some sort of trance. My reason
and my will seemed to have left me and gone far away. My only guide and
conscience was the woman... I was left at her will...
Time seemed to have been suspended, we were in a different world now...
I slipped into her arms and she carressed me tenderly and kissed me. I
was feeling so safe and so much loved, it was a heavenly feeling, so
delicate and yet she seemed so powerful... I was abandoned to her power.
Such warmth and tenderness just by lying on her... by being held in her
arms...
Such a feeling of security, of being so far away from my anxieties and
fears caused by my first days at work in the company. I was missing
university days during those times... So much stress at work... and then
she appeared...
She was older than me. I could feel that judging by the superior position
she obviously occupied...
I was so much troubled by so many anxieties back then: about life at work
and about my personal life in general. Was I ever going to get married?
Where was I to find a wife? How was I going to live through such a major
change in my life? I had not been a precocious independent adolescent...
I was still somehow insecure...
The unknown that lay ahead of me was making me so anxious...
But she had the power to chase my anxieties away.
At night when I sleep on her chest, in her arms and when she kisses me I
have such a comforting feeling of security... I let life go on without
being troubled by the question 'Where to?' anymore...