In The Arms of an Angel by Michael Elk A young man finds himself the unwilling captive of a dominatrix. With a light rain beginning to fall, I was pleased to see the grey Nissan Sentry begin to slow and then stop some 100 feet past me in response to my digital plea for transportation. On hustling to the vehicle, I was even more pleased (and certainly surprised) to find the driver to be female. She was an older woman, perhaps 40, with blonde hair and a friendly smile, a pleasant change in a world where it seemed that only the brave and the male would stop for a harmless college student. I had assured my parents that I was traveling from town to town by bus, but the practicality of finances required me to hitch rides more than I liked. "Hi. Where you headed?", she asked as I thanked her before slipping into the car and reaching for the seatbelt. "I’m heading for Thunder Bay along the Trans-Canada, but I’ll be happy with any distance you can take me." "Well I’m not going quite that far, but you’re a bit in luck. I can get you at least 80 miles in that direction. I’m Angela Schmidt." And she extended her hand towards me. Now I thought it a bit unusual to be shaking hands with a stranger who was just giving me a ride, though this was my first female chauffeur. It had not happened with the 10 or 12 men I’d ridden with so far. Her hand was warm and firm and soft - all normal attributes for a hand, but somehow unexpectedly so. She didn’t shake my hand with the obvious vertical motion. Instead, she simply clasped my hand firmly, without motion of any sort, and for a length of time that flustered me and forced me to be the one to terminate the contact. The action seemed blatantly sensual, and it both embarrassed and disturbed me. I wondered about her intentions. That handshake awoke me to her sexuality. When first entering the car, I had thought of the driver as a pleasant, middle-aged, mother-type. Now, within 10 seconds, I was viewing her as a fairly attractive, older woman, with a sturdy, but decidedly female body; and someone who apparently had designs on my own body. Though by no means contemplating an amorous future with her - how could I when she was twice my age - I became aware that she possessed a mature attractiveness that I otherwise wouldn’t have remarked. I did not want to have sex with her. If I have a fantasy woman, it is one who is younger and thinner. And I was still technically a virgin. However, in a subtle way, that handshake had served notice that she was all woman, and sewn the idea that she might be interested in a different form of shared ride. Although the idea of making love to her did not repulse me, I couldn’t embrace the notion either - it would have been too much like being with my mother - or rather with one of her friends. Nevertheless, from that moment, my view of my companion was forever altered. "What’s your name?", she inquired after a pause. Her question brought me back from the reverie into which I’d fallen. I silently reprimanded myself for forgetting the basics of good manners, and wondered if my thoughts were transparent. "Jamie", I said, "Jamie Owens. I just graduated from Carleton University and I’m taking a few months to travel and see the country before looking for a job and settling down." "Wow! That sounds just great. Carleton’s in Ottawa. Is that where you’re from?" "Close. I grew up in Kingston, and that’s where my parents live. Technically that’s still my address, though I haven’t been there for more than a weekend at a time for over four years." "What do your parents think of you hitchhiking all over the country like this?" "They think I’m going by bus. But the added cost would shorten my trip by months, so I don’t tell them. They wouldn’t be at all happy if they knew." "Aren’t you at all worried? I’d be afraid of meeting some psycho." "Oh yes. I guess there is a chance. However everyone I’ve met so far has been nice, and you take some chances every time you cross the street." "Do you write home often?" "No. I’m not the letter writing type. I send E-mails from libraries to friends occasionally, but my parents aren’t wired yet. But I phone them every Wednesday night regular as clockwork. Collect of course." "Are they always home when you call? Don’t they ever go out? Or do they stay put just because of you calling?" "They rarely go out on weekdays. But I phone at supper hour just in case." "What time is that?" "6:00pm sharp." I thought it strange that she would be interested in such trivial details, though I would ascertain the reason quite clearly later. "What do you do for a living?" " I worked as a nurse for 12 years, and then was in business for myself for the last 7. I’m mostly retired now." "Must have been awfully successful if you can retire this young. What business were you in?" "Well I usually just say ‘Consulting’ when asked that question. I don’t normally describe its true nature. People tend to be judgmental. But we are strangers, and not likely to cross paths again soon. Promise you won’t think less of me? " "Sure, but now you’ve really got my curiosity." "I went into the escort business." "What’s that?" "Oh my." she laughed. "You are delightfully naive. An escort is hired, usually by a male, for a variety of services. It could be, as the name suggests, as an escort for a social function. Once I went with a bachelor to a business luncheon where spouses were invited. But in 99 percent of contacts, it’s for sex. However it’s not quite like prostitution, as you’re probably thinking. I did give out favors, but I had a rule that although I touched them, my clients never touched my body. It works well, and is amazingly lucrative." "You said my hitchhiking was dangerous. Didn’t you ever have problems with perverts?" "Occasionally, yes. However my clients were usually lawyers or doctors, and generally quite pleasant. There are jerks among the rich, of course, just as with any class, but I can handle myself quite well." 2. The description of my companion’s vocation effectively terminated conversation for the next 10 minutes. We both occasionally made an effort at small talk, but it never had a chance to progress. Her revelation was just too severe, too intimate, for me. Our relationship was no longer casual. I was now her unwilling confidant, and there was nothing she could now say that would match her past disclosure. As for me, I no doubt lost respect for her, but could at the same time fantasize her hands on my body, performing these unknown sexual acts. Until now, I had visualized sex as a mutual affair fully involving both partners. This sounded more like masturbation without the ‘master’ part, and it had a perverted attraction to my young mind; even to the point where I would possibly have tested the waters, had I both the nerve and the money to taken the plunge. "You have a driver’s licence, don’t you?", she suddenly said out of the blue. "Sure. Why?" "Would you mind terribly driving for the last half hour? I’m late for an appointment, and I’m tired. I also need my insulin shot which takes about 5 minutes to prepare. The road is smooth, so I could do that while you drive. It would save time." "Sure. I like driving. As long as you trust me with your car." But she had already begun slowing down well before I spoke, and she didn’t bother with a reply. Mrs Schmidt (I had no idea if she was ever married, but Mrs seemed to fit) got out of the car and went around to the passenger side while I slid sideways on the seat. There was no console or gear shift on the floor so that contortions were unnecessary." And within seconds, we were again on our way. "How fast do you want me to go?", I asked as she rummaged in the glove compartment for her medicine. "Oh, 80 (k/hr) will get me there in plenty of time, but anything you feel comfortable with." From the corner of my eye, I observed in fascination as she rolled up her left sleeve and began to fill the needle with colorless liquid. "Over on your left there’s a beautiful panoramic view of a lake coming up." she said, and I wondered if the intent was to divert my gaze as she inserted the needle (That speculation would soon prove to be the case). So I dutifully shifted my focus and divided my attention more or less equally between the woods on the left and the road in front. I do not remember saying ‘Ow’ or ‘Ouch’, but I must have one or the other. However I can recall all other details of the next 10 seconds with clarity. The first involved involuntarily withdrawing my shoulder from, and shifting my eyes towards, the source of the pain in my arm. I saw my assailant also completely focused on the arm. The needle was fully inserted, and she was engrossed in first preventing my recoiling motion from dislodging the instrument, and then in slowly depressing the plunger. The next 5 seconds involved complete disbelief on my part, during which my antagonist withdrew the needle, flung it casually on the floor, and then calmly directed her vision towards the roadway in front. Only much later, and in retrospect, did the true nature of the assault dawn on me. But for those few seconds, I could only ponder incredulously why she had given me her insulin. Then I realized that I was becoming faint and was going to pass out. My foot sluggishly reached out for the brake, and my last cognizance was of her hands sharing the wheel with mine, and of my foot coming down on top of hers, already firmly seated on the peddle. 3. I awoke behind bars. I was lying on a single bed in a small dark room with only one dim lightbulb in the corridor just beyond the grate of my cell door. Something, perhaps the lack of windows, or a hint of mold, suggested that I was in a basement or underground. My head hurt, I was ravenous, and I had to use the facilities. I threw back the single blanket covering me, lethargically swung my leg off the cot and sat up. Someone had stripped me except for my boxer shorts. I surveyed my surroundings with bewilderment. Where was I and why? The room was about 20 feet by 15 with only a simple bed and chair for furniture. The bathroom was small and compact with a toilet, sink and shower, and adjoined the main room through a door on the side opposite the bed. That was where I headed first before exploring my surroundings more thoroughly. Then I tested the bars on my prison, but they were solid and gave me little hope of escape. I also checked that the iron gate was locked, just in case. Only the bathroom contained anything of interest. A small cabinet over the sink held a hairbrush, a razor, a toothbrush toothpaste, and deodorant. There was also a towel and face cloth, a glass, and a bar of soap on the counter. I found the light switch just inside the door, and when I switched it on, the light proved pleasantly intense compared with the gloom of the main room. I resolved to leave it on continually as the darkness of the main room was depressing. Should I ever find a book or a magazine, I would need the light in order to read. I must have been unconscious for some time, because I was famished. There was little I could do about that. However I drank two glasses of water, more to dull the ache of my stomach than from thirst. Then I waited. Mrs Schmidt appeared outside my cell after what seemed like hours, but was probably closer to one or two. "Well, the Kraken wakes. How are you feeling?", she said. She was dressed in white shorts and a yellow tank top. She was nearly as tall as I was, about 5' 10", tanned and solidly built. Her legs were long and her thighs smoothly substantial, thickening not unpleasantly as they rose to where her muscular buttocks taxed the material of her shorts. She had impressive pipes for a woman, larger than mine, and not without definition. I hadn’t noticed in the car, because she’d worn a long sleeve shirt. For the first time, I also noted the swell of her breasts. These were not large, but the points of the nipples were distinct against the cloth. Apparently she wore no bra, and if so, her breasts were exceptionally firm for someone her age. When I’d first met Mrs Schmidt, I’d read her as friendly and matronly. Then immediately, I’d been forced to recognize her sexuality. Now in her new role of jailor, she appeared neither friendly nor matronly, and her sexuality had ceased to be an attraction. Now she loomed before me solid and powerful, almost burly, and her demeanor seemed malevolent, especially after what she had put me through. Her prominent nose, her full lips and her strong facial features had at first seemed feminine and pleasant, but now only appeared predatory to one very frightened boy. "Open this door." I demanded, but my tone sounded weak even to me. "Why are you doing this?" "I’ll give the orders and ask the questions if you don’t mind, young man. Now, I’d like you to come upstairs for a short training session. I’ll need to tie your arms behind you. Come over here to the bars and turn your back. Right now." "No I won’t. I’m not doing anything you ask until you release me." "Have it your own way, Jamie. I’ll be back the same time tomorrow to ask you exactly the same thing. And then again once each day, and just once. You’ll be fed only after you comply." 4. I was so hungry that the agony seemed unbearable I didn’t think I could last another day, but did find that the ache in my stomach lessened considerably that afternoon, once my brain accepted the fact that there would be no food until the next morning. But after 24 hours deprivation of both stimuli and nourishment, you can imagine that I was much less willing to challenge Mrs Schmidt’s demands. When my tormentor finally reappeared, I stood passively, almost eagerly, with my back to the bars as she trussed my arms. Reaching through the bars from the outside of my cell, she wound white tape around one wrist, and then positioned the arms together, forearm to forearm, securing them with many wrappings of the tape. Then she unlocked the cell door and came in after me. "Jamie, I’m quite strong. I could probably handle you with or without your hands tied. So I hope you appreciate that bound like this, you could easily be beaten to a pulp. If you are contemplating defiance, kicking or anything like that, I would strongly suggest that you control the urge. Now, come along quietly. You’ll be fed after the training session" And with that, she gripped my elbow, and led me out of the cell. I went along meekly, too cowed to resist. We climbed a set of stairs, and turned left into a short corridor. The light was indirect and feeble, giving the place a gloomy atmosphere. Mrs Schmidt guided me into a room, dark enough that at first, I could make out only vague shapes. There were no windows, or at least they were well covered, so that the place had the aura of a dungeon. She steered me across the room, and although I couldn’t see well, the floor felt peculiarly thick and padded, as though I were walking on thin mattresses. Only when we reached the far side of the room did I perceive the flat, plywood board placed vertically on the floor and a few feet from the wall. It was vaguely the shape of a human (without the head) and, in the dim light, I could just make out several holes in it. "Up against the board, Jamie, face first, and place your toes through those two holes near the floor.", she ordered. "No! I cried in panic. I didn’t have any idea what she was up to, but whatever it was, I knew I wouldn’t like it." She reached down somewhere in the darkness, and retrieved an object. I had barely time to recognize and register the thing as a ‘cat-o-nine-tails’, a mean looking whip with several leather strips, when she swung her arm, and brought it down viciously across my shoulders. I screamed in pain. "Now, up against the board, Jamie.", she said with a calmness that was psychotic in nature and terrified me. This time, I hurried to comply. "Don’t move a muscle." she ordered as she attached some form of locking devices to my ankles that I couldn’t see. She then threaded a belt through the board from the other side, around my waist, and back through the board. Pulling hard on the belt, she drew my body up tight against the board, and then fastened the buckle in front of me; but on the far side of the board and very much out of reach. My chin rested lightly on the top of the board. I was in a state of absolute terror by this time, but didn’t resist as she released my arms from the tape and re-secured them to the board at the side. " I am a dominatrix, Jamie. That simply means that I dominate people. I made a good living for years doing this to men like yourself. And I was exceptionally good at the job. Most women who dominate only do it for the money, but for me, it is in my nature. I enjoy this more than anything else I could imagine. The rush I get having you in my power is narcotic. However I am not a killer and only mildly sadistic, so you will not be treated badly if you cooperate, and I give you my word that you will be released in exactly one month, plus any extra days added whenever you don’t cooperate fully. You’re certainly not the first young male that I’ve entertained here. "You may wonder how I’m able to kidnap and tyrannize youngsters like yourself with impunity. Well, the answer lies within the young men themselves. I find that guys seem strangely reluctant to go public with stories of their kidnaping and subjugation by a female. They would rather ignore their experience and keep their foolish male pride than to seek revenge on their torturer; and I suspect that, once released, you will also choose to keep our little affair confidential. However I expect you will learn a lot more about life here than you would hitchhiking across the country." " This is your first session, Jamie, so I will explain clearly what is expected of you. From now on, you will address me only as mistress. In addition, for this session, you will only speak when asked a question. And you will only ever answer ‘Yes, mistress’, never ‘No, mistress’ or ‘Why?’ etc. Is that clear?" "Yes" I said grudgingly. Whap. She swung her arm, and brought the whip viciously across my shoulders, once again. "What did you say?" she asked, holding the whip back, threatening another strike. "Yes mistress" I corrected quickly and shrilly, panicked to satisfy my tormentor and forestall another hit. "Good, you appear to be a fast learner. We’re going to get along splendidly. Now, do you see this object?" And she retrieved what I at first took for a thin piece of wood from a shelf in front of me. "Yes, mistress." "This is an antique, Jamie. An elementary school strap. These are no longer allowed in the classrooms of the nation. And that’s a real shame. Teachers would not have problems with students if discipline was still applied across the seat of the pants. Fortunately we are not subject to quite the same regulations as in the education system. Isn’t that a good thing, Jamie?" "Yes, mistress." "I’m certainly glad that you agree with me. Yesterday, I asked you to come upstairs and submit to a training session, did I not?" "Yes, mistress." I could see where this was going, and I didn’t like the direction. "And you refused, did you not?" "Yes, Mistress." "Jamie, you will quickly learn that whenever you defy me, there will be punishment. I feel that five strikes on your bare bottom with this strap would be a reasonable penalty. Do you agree?" I could already feel the pain, regardless of my answer. So I chose silence. "I asked you if you agreed?" Then when I still didn’t answer, she delivered a blow to my back with the whip that made me cry out in agony once more, and brought tears to my eyes. "I asked if you agreed. Do you?" "Yes, mistress." I sobbed, trying to keep from crying. She immediately grasped my underwear, and pulled it down to my ankles. "You have a lovely ass, Jamie", she said, taking a step back to better scrutinize the object in question. "Just perfect for a spanking. And one of these days, I will take you over my knee because I would find the endeavor most erotic. But for now, those five caresses from this little strap. It shouldn’t hurt much. Remember that the strap was intended for children and generally they were able to handle such punishment without fainting or screaming." I doubt if any teacher ever laid the leather on a child as hard as she did on me though. She put her entire arm and much enthusiasm into the discipline, and she had me begging for mercy after only the second stroke. She was right in one sense, though. The pain was not nearly as severe as the earlier blows from the whip, perhaps because it was directed to a meatier part of my anatomy. "That wasn’t so bad, now, was it Jamie? You took it almost like a man. Would you like five more for not answering your mistress properly the first time?" "Yes, mistress." I hoped that she would relent with the right answer. "I agree also. You are a smart young man, and are learning very quickly. Five more strokes should serve to hard-wire the instruction. Ready?" "Yes, mistress." And so I suffered yet another beating at her hand. Perhaps my buttocks had become numbed, or perhaps she took it easier, but the pain was slightly less brutal this time. In any case, she rubbed ointment on my injured back and bottom afterwards, pulled my underwear back up, re-taped my arms behind my back, and then released me from the board of torture. She then led me back to my cell, locked me in, and cut the tape from my arms. "You’re a good boy, Jamie." she said. "You took that quite well. I’ll be back with dinner in half an hour. I’m afraid you’ll have to sleep on your stomach for a couple of days though." 5. I remained in my cell, well fed and spared the ravages of my tormentor, but bored silly. There were no magazines or books and the only relief from the monotony were the visits from my captor three times daily to deliver meals. It was almost a relief when she came for me again two days later. This time I needed no threat of starvation to cooperate fully. I knew better than to resist, and presented my arms for binding at the first request. We went to the same room, much better lighted this time, and I could see that it was carpeted with what appeared to be gym mats. The plywood that I had been strapped to was still there, alongside one wall, but the only furniture was a single wooden chair. "Down on your knees, scum" Mrs Schmidt ordered. "Yes, mistress." I replied, but with no arms for balance, I toppled forward onto my face as I attempted to sink to my knees. She seemed to think that was funny. She grabbed the elastic waist band on my boxer shorts, snapped it lightly against my back. "Clumsy." she chuckled, and it was the first time I had heard her laugh. While I was occupied with getting back to my knees, she brought over a thin chain that was attached to an anchor in the wall, and manacled the free end to one of my ankles. "Jamie, I’m now going to release your arms so that we can proceed with your training. Perhaps the added freedom might make you think you could then fight back. In the unlikely event that you did defeat me, think what would happen to someone chained in a house with no way to get free, and no way to get food or water. It wouldn’t be pretty, would it?" And after a pause. "You can speak freely, your opinions now. As long as you always show me due respect. You no longer always have to say ‘yes’. Do you think it would be pretty, Jamie?" "No, mistress." She quickly cut the tape, and then sat down on the wooden chair. "On hands and knees, scum. Now, crawl over here to me and lick my feet." Her feet were bare, but I thought that the least offensive parts were the ankles so I started there. That’s it, Good boy. You are pleasing your mistress. Would you like to suck on my toes, Jamie?" "No, mistress." "That’s too bad. No foot fetishes in your family, eh? Unfortunately, I like to have my toes sucked. Now get busy, and do a good job, or else." I lifted her foot off the mat, took her big toe about an inch into my mouth and sucked timidly and with no enthusiasm. Suddenly I felt her body shift, and then the sudden burning pain across my shoulders, as she reintroduced me to the pleasures of the whip. I hadn’t known that she had it within range. I let out a cry of pain, and quickly pulled back. Anger seized me and momentarily I thought of striking out at my assailant. However Mrs Schmidt made no motion to hit me again and her calm, cold confidence made me pause long enough that my meager rage quickly succumbed to common sense and fear. She understood perfectly, and with a bemused smile on her face, "Sorry, Jamie, but I also believe that discipline is necessary if an assignment is not being performed to my standards. That foot down there is temporarily the mouth of the prettiest girl you have ever met. That big toe is her tongue, and she has just extended it from between full, sensuous lips, and proffered it as an oral libidinous tribute to your utterly unworthy self. I anticipate your recognizing the situation and putting the appropriate enthusiasm into the venture." The thought of another stroke from that menacing whip dominated all rational thought, and I completely forgot my initial reluctance in my effort to satisfy my antagonist. "Oh yes, that’s much better, Jamie. I knew you were a fast learner." 6. I have never experienced anything like the domination that Mrs Schmidt inflicted on me. Even as a small child, dependent on my parents, I was not continually forced to do what I didn’t want to do. And then, restraints placed on me, such as a play pen, were for my safety. Now, at the age of 23, I again suffered restraints; but now their intent was solely to humiliate. My subjugation by Mrs Schmidt was the most frustrating thing I had ever encountered. I was totally helpless. My training sessions were held in the mornings, and generally involved different forms of groveling at the feet of my captress. I would be forced to lick her feet, massage her legs and thighs, or rub her body with lotion - things that entailed some form of touching or sexual connotation, and therefore of considerable embarrassment for me. Other activities involved humiliation, such as pushing a peanut around the room with my nose, giving her a ‘horsey ride’ on my back, or making sounds of various animals. However, there was no longer any use of whips or straps as long as I cooperated fully, and she didn’t appear to want actual sex from me as I had originally feared she might. After the 3rd day, she began taking me upstairs after supper (my arms securely bound behind my back, of course). There we would play scrabble, watch television, or talk. We would also share a couple of rum and cokes, which, without use of arms, I would have to sip through a straw. There was little stress, and the conversation and activities proved enjoyable. I began to look forward to these nightly sessions with some eagerness, and they made my stay bearable. However in retrospect I can see that they also promoted a kind of perverted bonding between the two of us, and were, intentional or not on her part, a way of lessening my resentment, and an effective form of brainwash. 7. On Wednesday of the first week, Mrs Schmidt tied my arms and led me upstairs right after supper, as was our normal procedure. This time, however, she led me into her bedroom, ordered me to lie face down on the bed, and chained my leg to the bedpost. "I’m going to tie you to the bed now, Jamie." she said. "That’s OK with you? You do trust me, don’t you?" "Yes, Mistress." But I didn’t trust her, and was more than a little frightened of her intent. Perhaps she was now going to murder me. I’m not a brave person, and the anxiety was more than I could tolerate. I had to act, and decided to do it as soon as she released my arms from behind my back. However she must have read my mind, and gave me no opportunity. She tied my feet securely to the bedposts with tape, and then slid onto the bed and straddled my back. She bent forward, placed her mouth and inch from my ear, and whispered seductively into it. "You weren’t thinking of trying to escape, were you Jamie? Because its never a good idea to defy your mistress, Jamie. I’m going to release your hands, now, but I will remind you that the whip is right there on the chair beside the bed. How many times do you think I could strike you with it before you were able to turn around and untie both your feet. Or if I were to remain here, seated so comfortably in the small of your back, and did this....." Here she suddenly sat back and drove her fist into my ribs so hard that for a few seconds I couldn’t catch my breath to even cry out in pain. "....do you think you could throw me off before you were beaten black and blue?" She then proceeded to cut the tape from my arms, and to bind my wrists to the head of the bed. Meanwhile her captive, remained passive with fear and with the ache in his ribs, and allowed himself to be rendered helpless, and totally subject to the mercy of his persecutor. 8. "You have been a very good boy, Jamie, and therefore I apologize for hitting you like that. You certainly didn’t deserve it. However it was necessary to remind you of the pain that I am capable of administering when I am crossed. Did that hurt very much, Jamie?" "Yes, mistress." "Well you have my sincerest sympathy. You’ve been such a capable student that it’s not been necessary to punish you for almost a week. However it’s now become necessary to remind you of how vicious I can be when required. I intended five strokes of the whip as a reminder, but that blow to the ribs might serve instead. What do you think, Jamie." "I don’t think the whip will be required." I said. "I’m genuinely convinced of your meanness and brutality." "Why thank you, Jamie. It’s so nice to see a young man who appreciates the attributes of his superiors. Now, it’s 6:00pm Wednesday, Jamie, when you always telephone your parents and let them know that you’re OK. Well we both know that you’re not really OK, that you’re being subjected to the whimsies of a beautiful, though slightly depraved, dominatrix. However I’m sure that neither of us wants to worry Mom and Dad over such a trifle. So you are going to call them and reassure them of your continued fine health. You will tell them that you’re staying at the ‘Y’ in downtown Winnipeg for two days and then, in a couple days, moving on to Medicine Hat by bus. If they ask for the phone number of the ‘Y’, you don’t know it, but that if it becomes necessary to contact you, they could find it through information. "Now let’s talk consequences, Jamie. I will use *67 so that the call cannot be traced. I will also be listening to the conversation on the portable. Do not instigate any topic, such as asking about your dog, that I wouldn’t know about, and that could possibly send a secret plea for help - let them guide the conversation. Any non-compliance will result in ten lashes minimum, and more depending on the severity of your folly. "Should you openly reveal your plight and ask for help, remember that neither your parents nor the police would have any idea of your location. Even you don’t know where you are, do you Jamie? However it would force me to terminate our relationship prematurely to get rid of the evidence. And the evidence is you, Jamie. I would, of course, whip you savagely with the frustration of being thwarted. I doubt that I could stop myself. Then I would kill you, an action that I would deeply regret, since I like you a lot. 9. The reassurance of my parents solidified Mrs Schmidt’s hold on me. For at least seven days, there would be no search for a missing son, and I was confident that the forced call home would be repeated the next week, and each week thereafter. However the call was also reassuring. If I was going to be killed anyway, Mrs Schmidt would have had no need to satisfy my parents as to my well being. After the call, nothing out of the ordinary happened for several days. My training continued in the mornings, I remained in my cell in the afternoon, and I relaxed upstairs with my hostess after supper. No more beatings were necessary, and I had begun counting the days ‘til my promised release, growing more confident as time passed that the worst was over. On Monday evening, I believe it was, Mrs Schmidt taped my arms and led me upstairs as usual. She was dressed formally, wearing a white blouse and skirt rather than her usual shorts and tank top. Dressed up, she was amazingly attractive for an older woman. She really looked sexy, and I timidly complimented her on her wardrobe. "Keep your thoughts to yourself," she said, although not angrily. I had the feeling that she was not displeased. "I know exactly how I look, and don’t need insipid comments from a subordinate." This time, however, we didn’t go to the living room, as we normally did. Instead, she seized my elbow and steered me into the first room off the hallway, the one with the padded floor where she had whipped and strapped me the 2nd day of my imprisonment, and where she conducted my training each morning. The room was now well lit, but that didn’t lessen my apprehension much. However I was encouraged by the fact that the plywood board to which I’d been shackled, was missing. In fact there was now nothing at all in the room except the padding on the floor. "What’s going on?" I asked, looking toward my hostess for some explanation. "This is the wrestling room, Jamie, although you aren’t far enough into your training yet for us to use it for that purpose. But tonight we need a little room to maneuver and a little padding under us." Her reply was accompanied by a Mona Lisa type smile. And she slowly began to unbutton her blouse. "You see.... tonight I’m going to rape you." 10. "The rules are simple" she said, as she finished removing her blouse and tossed it into a corner. "There will be no punishment for resistence. In fact I prefer the challenge. And in order that you don’t just passively accept my assault - some weak males might consider this erotic - you will receive 20 lashes if I succeed. However if I fail, your stay will be shortened by one week. Your arms will remain bound behind your back, so you will only be able to defend yourself. However I will use no other constraints on you, and I must take you within 15 minutes. Starting now." I would have resisted regardless of the 20 proffered lashes. I was a relative innocent sexually, and the idea of being forced was not at all attractive to me. However the promised whipping added an element of terror to any repulsion I might have felt. There was only one entrance to the room, and Mrs Schmidt was between me and it. I began to circle around my adversary in a hopeless effort to escape to the door. As expected, she stepped sideways to keep her body between me and the exit. As I hesitated, debating whether or not to charge, she reached down and unbuttoned her skirt, a wrap-a-round, and sent it flying into the corner after the blouse. Now I saw her for the first time nearly naked in black panties and bra. But this was no delicate young female. She looked solid and strong. Probably she would have appeared sexy to most, with her long smooth limbs, her blonde hair and tanned skin, her thick muscular abdomen, and her strong Germanic features, but I was far too intimidated to admire them. To me she looked rapacious. She smoothly stepped out of her underpants, revealing that she was a true blond, bent into a crouch and began to advance towards me. I made an attempt to get past her, but she casually tackled me around the legs and took me to the floor. I didn’t try to get up because the best defense of my virginity was to stay on my stomach, or to assume a fetal position. I hoped that if I was careful, I would be able to protect myself for the required 15 minutes. Then she was on my back and gently running her lips over the nape of my neck. Shivers ran up and down my spine, and I hunched in my shoulders to fend her off. "Do you like that, Jamie?" she breathed into my ear. "Oh, we’re going to have so much more fun. I’ve got a million things I’m going to do to you." Then she grabbed me about the waist and tried to flip me over. I spread my legs and flattened my body as best I could. She worked at turning me for some time, trying it first left and then right. Suddenly she gave an extra effort and I found myself going over. We wound up with her on her back and me on top facing up. Though I couldn’t move without use of arms and with my legs waving in the air, I still thought I was OK because this definitely wasn’t a favorable position for rape. However she used her legs to control me and keep me from rolling off, while she hooked her thumbs under the waist band of my boxers and nimbly pulled downward. She only got them halfway down my rear, but without arms, I had no way to get them back up again. Now she quickly rolled me off and attacked the underwear with gusto. I tried to spread my legs to keep them on, but by then she was standing over me and pulling them so fiercely that I was being dragged along the floor. When the boxers finally pulled free of my ankles, she admired them as she might a hard fought trophy, and then tossed them in the corner with her own clothes. She stood over my nakedness like a fierce, bronzed goddess. I was mortified, never having been in that condition in the presence of a female. However that didn’t stop me from using my feet to fend her off as I lay on my back. As she moved towards me, I kicked out at her. It wasn’t easy to for her to attack me in this position, and we sparred for several minutes. Eventually she got hold of one of my ankles, which lessened my mobility and allowed her to grasp the other one as well. She must have been awfully strong because, flail as I did, I couldn’t shake my ankles free once she had them in her iron grip. Had I known what to expect, I might have defended better. But it probably wouldn’t have mattered. Once she had control of my feet, taking the fetal position was no longer an option. She simply stepped through my legs and dropped her rump heavily onto my stomach so that it knocked the wind out of me. "Can you see the clock, Jamie? I’ve still got 7 minutes left. You haven’t put up much of a fight so far. But now the fun starts - at least I intend to have fun." I couldn’t move. I tried bucking her off, but my captress was no lightweight, and the more I struggled, the worse my arms were crushed beneath me. As soon as I tired, she reached behind her back, undid her bra, and flung it to the side. Her breasts were not large, but were firm as a 20-year old’s. The nipples, surrounded by large purplish aureola, were spectacular. In her state of arousal, they were dark, dark red, and protruded at least an inch. They looked as rigid and rubbery as tire studs, and dominated my universe. They were the embodiment of raw female power, and left me feeling weak and vulnerable. "Like them Jamie?" she cooed, leaning forward and rubbing them against my chest. I felt myself rapidly becoming erect, and only then noticed that while I had been distracted by her breasts, she had taken the opportunity to wind her legs around mine. Now she aggressively tightened the grapevine so that my lower limbs were immobilized, and in some discomfort. "Ow. You’re hurting me." I cried out. "Love is always a little painful, Jamie. But it’s necessary to make sure you don’t flop around too much and spoil my fun." Suddenly I realized just how vulnerable my position was, and just how close she was to succeeding with the rape. With panic, I remembered the 20 lashes, and desperately tried to free my legs. But her feet locked solidly around my ankles, and her thighs were thicker and stronger than mine. Each time I twitched, she used the momentum to pry my legs further apart. Now she reached down and seized my sex in her hand, stroking it for a moment to insure its maximum stature. Then she ruthlessly bent it down, eliciting a shriek of protest from her hapless victim, and forced the tip into her sexual fissure. She placed her hands on my shoulders and began moving her body gently up and down against mine, gradually impaling herself further onto my staff. With maximum penetration achieved, her thrusts intensified so that our bodies began sliding back and forth on the pad beneath us. My position was far from comfortable with both our weights bearing down on my arms. Nor was my rape a quiet procedure. My abuser moaned and swore with each push and shove as she rammed herself upon my helpless form. "Ahhhh..... Ummm....Yesss.. Shit!! That’s feels good.,eh Jamie?.. Uhhh.... Christ!!" It was like being ravaged by a maniac, like I wasn’t there. My participation was not required. She was a Grecian goddess, violating a worthless mortal. Her pleasure was derived through domination, and I could have been a corpse for all she cared. And I was far from comfortable - her thighs gripped me so fiercely that my legs were going numb and my arms hurt like hell beneath me. Nevertheless, pleasure quickly began to barrage and then to overwhelm my body. Her sex gripped me like a fist, caressing and squeezing and fondling. And the skin on skin contact, so unfamiliar to me, was hot, sweaty and electric. I began losing myself in rapture. Discomfort of arms and legs were swiftly forgotten. My eyes closed, my head lolled, my breathing quickened as I involuntarily surrendered to my captor and focused on base animal gratification. The thought of those twenty promised lashes was exiled to the nether reaches of my mind. Had the devil given me an option just then, my soul would have been forever lost. Suddenly her mouth was on my lips, her breath sweet, and her tongue thick and demanding. Surrender was quick and unconditional, my conquest complete. The moist, rubbery, invader penetrated my defenses, slithering deliciously between my teeth, where it was greeted as a liberating army and sucked greedily with fervor and lust. I was far from an experienced lover. In fact this was my first time with a woman. I came quickly and violently, mewing and whimpering involuntarily with the unfamiliar rapture. The pleasure was agonizing and intense. I could have expired from excruciating bliss. My partner, on the other hand, continued to ravish my body for 2 or 3 minutes, and sated as I was, I became a fascinated spectator to her carnal rutting. By then she was fast approaching orgasm, and her breath was coming in short gasps. Her moans and groans, fierce and aggressive in contrast to my ineffectual whimpering, intensified as she approached climax. Her hips ground fiercely into my sex, her body stiffened, her nails clawed my shoulders, tremors raked her torso, and a squeal of rapture worked its way from her lungs, and around the tongue which I still held firmly in its oral prison. Mrs Schmidt’s body gradually relaxed, and as her form went limp, her apparent weight on top of me doubled and became quite uncomfortable. She had spent a lot more energy than I had and was exhausted. Her head nestled against my shoulder and her hair tickled the side of my face. She didn’t move for some minutes. Then she lifted her head, smiled down upon her recent conquest, and began gently running her lips over mine. "I guess you performed well enough that we can forget about the whipping I promised. That was mainly to give you a reason to resist. I find it so much more interesting when my partner starts out as unwilling. However I think a reasonable punishment for your failure would be an additional 2 weeks vacation here with your mistress. Would you like that Jamie?" "Yes mistress." But this time, my response was not solely through fear. Domination by this physical Amazon suddenly seemed rather desirable, and two weeks more of this treatment not such an appalling fate. 11. That was the end of my cross Canada tour, and of my effort to see my country before settling down to look for a job. In fact it was also the end of my looking for a job at all. Had anyone told me that three months after leaving college, I would become the concubine of a female twice my age, I wouldn’t have believed them. And if I’d been told that I would be a sexual slave of, and physically submissive to such a woman, I’d have been certain that at least one of us was crazy. However for the next few weeks, I was wined and dined and generally sexually abused. At least twice a day, and sometimes thrice, I was taught (or forced to perform) methods of lovemaking most of which I had never imagined possible. I discovered the joys of mild sado-masochistic sex and of oral sex, and also learned a lot more than I wanted to about vibrators, dildos, and restraints. I guess I should have been repulsed, but the physical gratification was too pleasant to withstand. So when the time came for my release, and Mrs Schmidt gave me the option of remaining with her, I was hooked - either too much in love with her, or too much in love with what she did to me. The understanding was that when I stayed, I would be given my physical freedom, but that Mrs Schmidt would maintain her dominance in all matters. Essentially I sold myself, giving up all pretext to independence in exchange for wanton libidinous pursuits. And her dominance turned out to be real, physically as well as psychologically. Though I would have willingly surrendered her power, it wasn’t entirely necessary. She proved quite capable of seizing it with or without my cooperation. She was solid and strong, but amazingly lithe and agile as well. We would usually wrestle, prior to lovemaking. And to my shock, I found that my consort was at least as strong as I was, and a better athlete. As a cocksure young male, I had always been confident in my strength and virility, so I didn’t like being beaten by anyone. Nevertheless it proved deliciously frustrating and erotic to be physically dominated by a woman. She would usually get the best of me and then we would make love. And one time, she put me in a hammer lock, dragged me to a chair, put me over her knee, wound one massive thigh around my leg to secure it, and then gave me the spanking she had promised the first day of my captivity - all in spite of my best efforts and quite against my will. Epilogue My domination by this woman has been swift and thorough. I have now been her virtual slave for 4 glorious months. I do not know how long my subjugation will last, but it is no longer forced. Now it is with the full cooperation of an infatuated fool. I have grown to love being a submissive, and doubt that sex will ever be satisfactory for me again in its absence. At the moment, I appear to be pleasing my mistress. However she has mentioned others who she had similarly entertained, and where are they now? This can’t last forever, and I know that one day she will tire of me and toss me out. I dread the thought, because I know it will break my heart. All I can do is to strive my utmost to please her, and to hope that she will overlook my deficiencies for a long time into the future.