Corbin: The College Years, part 10.5
By Corbin, nex_xus@hotmail.com
How life
tests the endurance, patience, and sometimes faith of one young woman.
Pre-Story Introduction/Ranting/Venting/Rambling…
I’ve
mentioned in the past that I am very picky about who I date, now what justifies
as being picky? Well, in a world where almost anything and everything goes, the
field of dating material is growing might thin.
Right
from the word “Go” a man with tattoos, body piercing, involved with drugs or smokes is instantly eliminated. Tough shit, I believe you
should not defile your body with stupid pictures and metal objects stabbed into
your skin. If you get over those hurdles then you just have to be at least
5’10”, athletic and humble…that’s it!! Amazing huh, you thought the list would
be incredibly long and complex. Yet you would be amazed (or maybe not) at how
few men out there are athletic and humble.
On with
part 10.5 (
Over
break, Corbin did some running, to keep her cardio work up. It took her mind
off the fact that
‘You have
a 4.0 grade average, you are athletic, you have a great friend in Nikki, and
guys are hitting on you like there is no tomorrow: SO SUCK IT UP!' Basically
she had snapped, not in the bad sense, but out of her funk was more like it and
the very next day she went into a local gym to begin lifting again.
Driving
home, she hoped that another lengthy discussion with her parents would not
ensue; they had quizzed her in length about boyfriends, actually the lack
thereof and her obsession with working out. Mostly though, she had been able to
convince her parents that working out helped her in soccer and she retold a few
dates she had been on recently. Her ‘ace’ was her grades…always they were
high…and still are, here semester grades came back putting her at a 3.89 Average.
“What the
fuck!” Corbin took her foot off the gas as she let her car roll down the street
towards her house. She caught her breath, trying to be sure as she stared at
Nikki’s car sitting in her driveway. It was easily a two hour drive for Nikki
and she was not at all expecting her, but that didn’t stop Corbin from
practically busting thru the front door, her eyes quickly scanning every inch
of the foyer, before finding Nikki sitting in the kitchen talking to her mom.
“Nikki!”
Corbin gasped, her face breaking into a big smile.
“Would
you not slam the front door like that” Corbin’s mom complained.
“Sorry
mom” Corbin sighed and walked around to the black haired girl and the two
embraced in a tight hug.
“Sorry to
drop in uninvited” Nikki smiled as she pulled away, both sat back down at the
table simultaneously.
“Sorry?”
Corbin glared dumbfounded, “Are you kidding, I was going to give you a call
later, this is even better!” Corbin now sat grinning ear to ear, “You have to
stay for dinner” Corbin reached over with her right hand and gripped Nikki’s
left wrist urgently.
“We were
just talking about that” Corbin’s mom piped up.
“Yes, I
would love too, thank you for the invitation” Nikki looked at Mrs. Brennan and
nodded in appreciation.
“Let’s go
up to my room to chat while I change out of these gym clothes” Corbin quickly
stood up. Nikki turned back to Corbin’s mother and smiled, “It was nice meeting
you” before following Corbin upstairs. They had barely gotten into Corbin’s
room when she invited Nikki to stay the night, “Nic
you have to stay over, you drove all this way, I don’t want you driving back
tonight”. Corbin unzipped her warm up jacket, revealing a grey tee shirt
drenched in sweat.
“Oh I
don’t want to impose” Nikki sighed and walked around Corbin’s room, slowly
taking everything in.
“Well,
I’m still blown away, what brings you all the way out here” Corbin stood, hands
on hips watching Nikki pause in her surveying of the room. Slowly she looked to
her left and smiled at Corbin, “I just wanted to see you” Nikki smiled and
shrugged, her right finger ran along the edge of Corbin’s tall dresser.
“That’ it?” Corbin questioned with a perplexing shrug.
“Isn’t
that enough?” Nikki whispered back as she barely looked back over, and if
Corbin wasn’t mistaken a hint of blush filled Nikki’s cheeks.
“It is
for me” Corbin sighed and sat on the edge of her bed to untie her shoelaces.
“Well, if you can hold on, I’ll jump in the shower and then talk to my mom
about you staying over…I mean it’s really a done deal I just need to tell her
and dad.”
Nikki
waited for Corbin to leave for the bath and then pulled out her desk chair to
have a seat. Her mind was buzzing as she carefully brushed her straight black
hair over her ears, ‘This was a mistake’ Nikki thought, her fingers actually
trembled as she brought her hand up and gently stroked her cheek and forehead.
She must have been deeply lost in thought for several minutes, or Corbin’s bath
was short, because the next thing she knew Corbin was walking into the room in
a pair of jeans, sandals and a loose white sweater. She watched blankly as
Corbin vigorously rubbed a towel over wet long blonde hair.
“I feel
overdressed” Nikki sighed and stood up as they went back down stairs, looking
down at her knee length wool skirt, dark grey with a silver button down blouse.
“Never,
you look wonderful” Corbin glowed and took her hand, leading her downstairs.
The rest of the evening was spent about the upcoming year and soccer…as well as
boys and such, but the subject of boys was one that Nikki seemed to oddly
avoid, which was strange to Corbin because Nikki had a boyfriend at the time.
It was on
this particular night, right before heading back to school as she sat down in
the den talking with Nikki when her mother called out, "
While
Corbin hated to be petty, there felt some justification in her actions. ‘It was
Sharon who had been the one leaving their friendship behind when it didn’t fit
into her schedule’ and so Corbin looked back over at Nikki who seemed perplexed
at the way Corbin was blowing off
“You sure? I don’t mind if you want to go talk, she’s your friend and
roommate” Nikki tried to interject.
“No, it’s
okay really” Corbin sighed with a smile, but it wasn’t okay in some ways. “
“That’s for
sure” Nikki mumbled which drew a small chuckle from Corbin.
“You
don’t think very highly of
“I don’t know
“What is
it?” Corbin said quietly, “Don’t worry, my parents are
great about privacy, what’s on your mind?” Corbin lowered her voice a little
more.
“Well”
Nikki sighed and pushed her hands into the cushions below, forcing herself to
sit up straight. Corbin followed suite and sat up next to her from her lounging
position, “This sounds serious” Corbin teased.
“Well…not
really serious, just something I’ve noticed…” Nikki smiled, that smile of hears
that could disarm people with a look of serenity, although you never really
knew what was going on behind those dark eyes, “…now, we’re friends right? So
don’t take this question the wrong way…” Nikki’s face remained relaxed and the
smile never wavered, which helped to relax Corbin although the blonde was
getting tense, obvious by the way her left hand clutched the pillow in her lap.
“What?”
Corbin sat frozen, not one for patience she was about to burst in anticipation.
“What are
your feelings about men?” Nikki had her eyes locked on Corbin’s now and the
blonde felt like a deer in headlights, even worse like a lab rat whose reaction
was being intensely scrutinized.
“My…my feelings?” Corbin simply stuttered the question back at Nikki
momentarily confused or acted confused, but Corbin quickly understood what
Nikki might be getting at and was actually sitting there trying to decide to
play dumb or if she was up to the discussion. For even one second she thought
Nikki
stood by her question, she didn’t back off and she didn’t explain herself, she
never did, she sat quietly waiting…in fact she was prepared to sit as quietly
as possible for as long as necessary until Corbin spilled her guts.
But the
reaction Nikki finally got was totally unexpected…in a few seconds, Corbin’s
beautiful face transformed, the tone of her cheeks become blushed as her eyes
darted away for a second, but quickly returned to meet Nikki’s.
Corbin
felt cornered, but she was a woman willingly trapped…she wanted to discuss her
frustrations…to someone…and not even
“…why I
don’t have a boyfriend?” Corbin sighed and rolled her eyes but relaxed upon
feeling Nikki’s right hand gently grip her left wrist supportively.
“Not at
all” Nikki shrugged, “Just how you seem so ‘on guard’ around men…and I guess
women too for that fact” Nikki replied.
“Well
aren’t most girls…guarded that is?” Corbin challenged back.
“Some…maybe…but
you’re a little more so” Nikki calmly added.
Corbin
sighed with a blush, “Yeah, I am…I suppose…” she then smiled knowingly, “…I
guess it comes out almost as being resentful…” Corbin actually looked angry for
a second.
“I know, I’ve seen it...” Nikki nodded in agreement. But then
Corbin looked away and as if she contemplated something for a second…maybe even
trying to make her mind up about something until she finally refocused her
stare towards Nikki.
“But I do
hold men responsible for they’re actions to some degree…and feel justified in
that blame…” Corbin’s look remained focused and stern.
“They’re
not all like that” Nikki said quickly, “Rob isn’t like that” Nikki said about
her own boyfriend, but not in a defensive way.
“No…you’re
right…just only most of them are” Corbin gripped with a smirk.
“Sounds
more like a problem with society as a whole” Nikki actually smiled a little.
“We’ll,
maybe your right on that point, but I’m not so much angry as I am frustrated. I
feel like I’ve had so many close encounters with guys that would make such a
great friend or…” at this point Corbin blushed a little, “…you know, a
boyfriend even, but something always gets in the way” Corbin slunk down into
the sofa and let her head rest against the cushion behind her. “Something
always seems to get in the way” Corbin whispered while staring at the ceiling.
“I tend to pull the plug a little early on my guy friendships, they never want
to remain friends anyway you know…” her voice trailed off.
“I
know…oh how I know. It’s also about time you accept you’re too beautiful a girl
for a guy to try and stay friends with, they’re going to want to take it to the
next level” Nikki smirked, reflecting back on her own past experiences.
“Oh
please” Corbin chuckled and even snorted a little at Nikki’s comment about her
appearance. And then Nikki fully understood, she sat up a little straighter and
leaned close in as if to make her point very clear, her big beautiful eyes
narrowed up as she softly spoke, “You’re uncomfortable with how good looking
you are and the attention you receive”.
“Gee, you
think!” Corbin glared over to her right with a cocked eyebrow, mocking Nikki’s
declaration but quickly frowned, “Sorry Nik, I know your trying to be serious”.
“Thanks”
Nikki smiled slightly.
“But it’s
like…” Corbin shot her hands out in front of her as if grasping for some
invisible object, but done merely out of frustration, “…it’s like, I have to be
in complete control and guys always seem to want to rush things and control
things. I’ve only like kissed a couple of guys even…can you believe that?”
Corbin looked over quickly at Nikki to check her reaction.
“You
don’t believe me?” Corbin smiled.
“No, I
really do, it’s just you’re a rarity”.
“You mean
a freak?” Corbin pinched her eyebrows together, her expression one of humor at
her own expense as Nikki let a small laugh fly from her lips at Corbin’s
comment.
“Oh
Corbin, you are no freak” Nikki adjusted her position on the couch and gave her
short black skirt a gentle tug as it began to ride up her creamy white thigh.
“And I’m
not gay” Corbin quickly said, “If that’s what you’re thinking”.
“Hey!”
Nikki smiled and had to look away, her eyes diverting to her lap, “I never said
anything about your sexual preference” and waved her hands in the air as if
casually dismissing the notion.
“Oh yeah
right, you were just building up to it” Corbin smirked and rested back against
the couch. “I just have very high standards when it comes to
guys that’s all” and Corbin folded her arms across her chest, seemingly
lost in thought.
“You’ll
meet the right guy Corbin, someone out there will be your perfect match” Nikki
smiled and soothingly rubbed Corbin’s right forearm. “I know that sounds
cliché”.
“No,
no…actually it’s nice to hear” Corbin sighed.
“You and
your mom close? Do you two talk?” Nikki pried a little further.
“Some,
but she more or less talks ‘at’ me and my father plucks her last nerve by
pushing me into sports, he loves the fact that ‘his girl’ is so strong while my
mom wishes I would be more of a girly-girl” and a broad smile comes over her
face. “He’s been so supportive, even saying that he has the best of both worlds
by having a beautiful daughter that loves sports as much as he does”. Corbin
suddenly looks over to her right as if a new idea had sprouted in her head.
“Look, I
know allot of guys out there are okay…and allot of they’re antics are a front
for their fragile egos underneath. But like I said, I just have high standards, I’m not willing to settle for anything less then
what ‘I’ want”.
Nikki
studied her friends face for a minute and began to understand just how resolute
her blonde friend was, there was an inner drive and strength to Corbin that
Nikki had never found in anyone, not even herself.
“Don’t ever compromise that…on anything or anyone” Nikki said seriously as her
right hand came up and stroked Corbin’s face, “It’s your strength and it’s what
draws people to you, but don’t let it make you into an island…that’s
untouchable or unreachable” Nikki said quietly, her eyes stared long and hard
into her friends face and she was relieved that Corbin seemed to understand.
Corbin
didn’t know why, but she suddenly blushed and glanced away, maybe it was how
sincere Nikki seemed to be…combined with her soothing touch and serious
comments.
“Sorry, I
don’t mean to get all serious and philosophical on you” Nikki sighed.
“No it’s
okay” Corbin sighed and reached out with her left hand to briefly touch Nikki’s
retreating hand. “They’re wonderful words of encouragement”.
The door
bell rang from upstairs and almost instantly Corbin’s mom called out from the
upstairs kitchen, “I’ll get it!” But Nikki and Corbin didn’t even hear, they were still too wrapped up in their conversation.
“I really
appreciate your…” Corbin had just started to speak
again when she was interrupted.
“They’re
downstairs” Corbin barely caught the conversation from the foyer and become
distracted by who had just arrived. Her heart leapt out of her chest when she
saw
“Well, I
see I am interrupting”
“Sharon”
Corbin bolted to a standing position from the couch, her face lighting up with
a smile, “Come on down and stay awhile” Corbin stepped around the coffee table
but stopped after only a couple of steps as her smile faded.
“Hello
Nikki”
“Hello
“I can’t
stay Corbin, just wanted to speak with you, in private”
“Yeah…okay”
Corbin shrugged and followed
“So
what’s up?” Corbin asked in a cool but concerned manner, but
“Thanks a
fucking lot for the phone call in return”
“What?”
Corbin was indeed shocked at how
“Oh and I
suppose you were going to make the time after your friendly chat with Nikki? Is
that it?”
“This
isn’t the time” Corbin said in her own low tone, her
jaw line clenching.
“We’ll
call me some time when you make the time” Sharon said closer to her normal tone
and jerked the front door open, she was fast, moving out the front door before
Corbin could react. Quickly though, Corbin was behind her able to catch
“Hey…wait
just a second…” Corbin’s body tensed at the biter cold out on her parent’s
front porch.
“I
haven’t done anything wrong, I haven’t heard from you in days…maybe weeks and
you call me out of the blue!” Corbin pleaded. “
“I did!”
Corbin
shut down and tuned out…she was no good at arguments and didn’t understand the
intricate politics of friendships…especially when jealousy was involved.
“I have
to go” Sharon said in a cold tone, but it took every bit of her strength to
utter the words, wanting and expecting Corbin to cave into her juvenile
tantrum…but Corbin wasn’t like Sharon’s other friends. Instead, Corbin simply
waved her left hand towards
Reluctantly
Robotically
Corbin turned to her right, her right hand gripped the icy cold door knob and
while she was distraught over how things were left she wanted to get in out of
this unusually bitter cold. She heard
“Everything okay?” Corbin’s mom appeared in the doorway to the kitchen straight
ahead wiping her hands clean with a dishrag.
“Yeah”
Corbin muttered in a distracted tone before heading down stairs.
Corbin’s
mom stayed in the doorway, studying her daughter, her only child and was left
at a loss for words. Corbin totally baffled her, she
wasn’t at all sure where the child came from, which was meant as a humorous
thought. Liz, Corbin’s mother, was an average looking woman and both she and
her husband had light brown hair, but nothing like the radiant blonde hair that
Corbin had inherited somewhere in their blood line and that wasn’t all…
As Liz’s
eyes watched her daughter descend the stairs to the family room, she allowed
the realization that Corbin was grown up and not just grown up but her athletic
pursuits were starting to show and a growing anxiety filled Liz, it was odd
because she couldn’t put her finger on it. Corbin definitely had an athletic
build and looked strong, stronger then any girl Liz had ever seen, and when
Corbin rarely donned a tee-shirt the pieces of the puzzle started coming
together. Yet she prayed that Corbin wasn’t becoming fitness obsessed. Her
daughter still retained her feminine features by keeping her beautiful, flowing
blonde hair long ‘Thank god!’ her mother thought. But her height at almost 5’
11” and developing body was not so easy to hide anymore. Shaking her head with
concern she slowly wheeled back into the kitchen.
“Something’s
wrong” Nikki stood up as Corbin’s shoe touched down on the last step.
“I don’t
know what’s going on, or gotten into her, she’s so mad with me lately” Corbin
sighed, “We were pretty close…real close not long ago…” Corbin caught herself drifting off and by the time she came around Nikki
was already right in front of her, wrapping her arm around her shoulders in a
supportive hug. And she didn’t say a thing that was what Corbin loved about
Nikki, the long quiet moments where neither felt the need to chat.
“Thanks Nik” Corbin relaxed and returned the hug.
“My god”
Nikki pulled her head back and her fingers ran along Corbin’s spine.
“What”
Corbin tensed as if something was wrong.
“Corbin,
I’ve never realized how defined you are…how muscular you are” Nikki ran her
fingers up Corbin’s back and around her shoulders, probing thru the blonde’s
layers of clothing just to be sure.
“Oh
please” Corbin blushed and looked down to the ground, her shoulders slumping to
further hide her physique.
“No, I
mean it” Nikki took a step back while her hands continued to explore the
shoulders and arms of the blonde in front of her, “When you hugged me just now
you felt solid as a rock. No wonder you plough thru girls on the soccer field”
But Nikki detected such attention was making Corbin uneasy and changed the
subject.
“Is
everything going to be okay?” Nikki’s grip on Corbin’s shoulder returned to
being one of reassurance.
“Uhm…” Corbin snapped back to the question, “…well I don’t
know…” Corbin sighed.
“Supper’s
ready!” Corbin’s mom shouted out and seemed to break the spell. Nikki didn’t
push any further although she knew that
“Let’s
eat” Nikki quickly perked up and tried to head things back to a lighter
conversation.
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Corbin
reached up into her closet and pulled out a sleeping back, “Tonight, you sleep
in my bed”. She figured that they could get away sleeping together in a double
bed at least, but Corbin’s was a single, leaving little room for just one
person.
“Corbin please…” Nikki began to protest, but Corbin wasn’t listening
to her, she kept unrolling the sleeping bag.
“It’s no
use protesting” Corbin said as she unzipped the side of the fluffy sleeper.
“Okay”
Nikki mumbled to herself and got ready for bed. Corbin didn’t know why she had
become so giddy and excited about Nikki’s visit, it was only about a week ago
she was stressed out about how close they were getting physically, but it just
felt too damn good right now to worry about any of that.
Corbin
was pretty sure Nikki was still awake, she couldn’t
see her face from where she was laying down on the floor, so she wasn’t sure.
“Nic” Corbin whispered.
“What’s
up?” Nic whispered back.
“So…like…what’s
on your mind…I mean…you’ve been sort of quiet since you got here, everything
okay with you and Rob?” Rob being Nikki’s boyfriend.
“Yeah,
we’re still seeing each other” Nikki said in a somewhat monotone voice. It was
a pivotal moment for Nikki and she actually could feel herself breaking out
into a sweat while contemplating all of her thoughts about her friendship with
Corbin and what to say and what not. But she didn’t want to spoil the mood,
Corbin was so excited to see her and a real heavy conversation might foul
things up. There wasn’t much of a moon this night and Nikki could barely make
out Corbin’s face from where she was laying looking up at her.
Corbin
couldn’t take the suspense, it was killing her and she sat up, quickly enough
that it almost seemed to cause Nikki to jump a little bit.
“You can
tell me” Corbin said in the faintest whisper while she propped her body up with
her arms. Her eyes had adjusted enough to see that Nikki’s hand was now peeking
out from underneath the covers, her index finger motioning for Corbin to come
closer. Yet Nikki still didn’t say a word and the long shadows kept Corbin from
seeing her friend’s expression, something Nikki was grateful for.
“What?”
Corbin nervously smiled and sat up some more, but Nikki kept slowly beckoning
with her hand gesture, wanting the blonde to come closer.
“What?”
Corbin asked again in the softest whisper she could muster as she slid her legs
out from the under the sleeping bag and crawled hesitantly to the edge of the
bed.
“I want
you to come over her” Nikki said in her own soft, low voice, but she included a
slight sarcastic tone as if Corbin would only find out when she got closer.
Corbin’s
heart was pounding, she was nervous about whatever Nikki was calling her closer
for, and prayed that she wasn’t about to reveal some horrible news. But Corbin
couldn’t help it and her face got evidently tense with concern, “Nikki, your
making me very nervous, what’s wrong?” Corbin pleaded, propping her elbows on
the edge of her bed.
“Sorry”
Nikki smiled, “I’m not trying to make you nervous, I’m
just being…silly…that’s all…”
“Silly?”
Corbin smiled with a nervous chuckle, “That’s okay”.
“I just
didn’t want to keep whispering back and forth, better if we talk closer” Nikki
said and hesitated again, “I would like it if you would just lay here for a
minute”. Her heart had surely stopped beating, Nikki felt like she had just
proposed something devious…terrible…offensive and for a few seconds after her
request she waited for Corbin to totally rebuff her request.
“Only if
you promise to tell me what’s bothering you” Corbin smiled devilishly and
watched as Nikki raised her right arm, the heavy blanket seemed to float in the
air and hold position. Corbin crawled up under the blanket and adjusted herself but it was rather difficult in that it was a single
bed and the full length of her body brushed up against Nikki’s. The only thing
that was slightly uncomfortable was the way their bare legs touched from the
top of their thighs down to their toes. It felt good actually, both of their
legs were smooth and shaven and more importantly very warm. Her eyes blinked
and adjusted to the close proximity of Nikki’s face, so close she could even
feel her friend’s breath on her face, yet there was a comfort their closeness
and sense of security, something she had infact
enjoyed with
“Okay,
what’s up” Corbin said with a smile of anticipation.
“Close
your eyes” Nikki said and prayed that she could maintain control over her body.
It was taking every bit of concentration to keep from shaking as she
contemplated her next action.
Corbin’s
eyes narrowed suspiciously but she slowly narrowed her eyes until they were
indeed shut, but it was so damn dark that it was almost not necessary. “What
are you up too?” Corbin sighed as she felt Nikki’s right hand move under the
covers, closer to Corbin’s head and it wasn’t long before Corbin felt a
fingertip lightly graze her chin.
“Shhhh and hold still” Nikki said failing this time to hide
the nervous tone in her voice. Corbin smiled a little more but more so out of
anxiety as a warm palm came to rest on the blonde’s left cheek. The touch was
soothing and comforting.
What
happened next made Corbin’s entire body tense, her lips felt something warm and
soft as a tingle shot down her spine igniting a warmth in the pit of her
stomach that grew…spreading out over her entire body.
Needless
to say, her eyes did not stay closed and fluttered quickly open as her head
jerked by not necessarily in any specific direction. More so it seemed to snap
her out of her comfortable haze. The lingering touch was now gone and only
Nikki’s smiling face was looking at a perplexed and somewhat shocked woman
across from her.
“What did
you do?” Corbin gasped.
“Please
don’t be mad at me” Nikki tried to maintain her smile as she looked for
sympathy.
“No…I’m…I’m
not mad…I’m just…wondering…” Corbin could barely bring herself
to say what she suddenly realized had just happened and her heart was now
hammering violently in her chest.
”I’m sorry, I should have asked your permission first, but I wanted to feel
what…” and Nikki took a deep breath, a breath that was done to keep her
composure because she found herself becoming a bit emotional. “…what it was
like to kiss you”.
When
those words came from her friend’s mouth Corbin just about fainted, her chest
swelled as she began to breath harder. Another girl
had just kissed her on the lips, although it was more of light peck then a real
kiss.
“Why?”
Corbin croaked out nervously her body paralyzed with fear not only from the
tension that seemed to suddenly materialize between them but from a warm
feeling that had started in the pit of her stomach and now made her flush in
the most private of areas.
“Don’t
worry, I…I was just seeing what it felt like…I don’t go around doing this you
must believe me, but I must admit I wondered what it would be like to kiss
another girl. But you’re the first and only one I’ve ever had such a strong urge
to do ‘that’ with” Nikki was blushing now and knew she could no longer disguise
the trembling in her legs and arms.
Oddly,
Corbin felt flattered, mainly because she believed Nikki. “I’m just a bit
shocked…you understand…I think I should be offended…” Corbin nervously smiled
but rolled her eyes, “…I don’t…”
“Please…tell
me…I just did something very risky and need to know how you feel about it…if
I’ve jeopardized our friendship in some way” Nikki began to softly stroke
Corbin’s cheek.
“Oh
Nikki…no…not at all please don’t worry” Corbin urgently pleaded and couldn’t
believe that her raven haired girlfriend was getting so upset. Indeed, Nikki
tried for a second but her chest convulsed as she silently wept turning her
head to the left until it was buried into the pillow almost.
“Oh
Nikki…please don’t cry…It’s okay…” Corbin pulled her
close and kissed her head, “Everything’s okay”.
“I’m
sorry, I just was curious that’s all…I’m not freaking out on you” She sighed,
appearing to calm down as Corbin embraced her. It was immediately soothing to
feel and hear that Corbin was not going to get offended by her stealing an
innocent kiss.
“What?
Talk to me” Nikki whispered as they withdrew from their embrace, immediately
she could tell Corbin was stressed…a slight tremble radiated from her friend’s
strong body. Nikki watched intently in the dark shadows as Corbin’s eyes closed
and remained closed, perhaps for only a few seconds but it felt like minutes
waiting to look into those eyes again for some type of reassurance.
“I’m just
scared, that’s all” Corbin sighed with the briefest smile.
“Nooo…please no” Nikki groaned, “Don’t be, I take full
responsibility, it’s my fault…” but Nikki stopped mid thought as she felt
Corbin’s left hand gently lay upon her right cheek.
“Nik…no more apologies” Corbin said, this time seriously
without the hint of a smile.
“I’m
scared too” Nikki’s voice trembled out and they locked eyes for several
seconds, no smiles…no distractions. It felt like an inferno under the blanket
and they’re was no mistaking the pounding of their
hearts, sometimes in unison it seemed. Nikki wasn’t sure where to go with this
but tilted her chin up, wondering what Corbin would do, Nikki had completely
given into the fact that she wanted to kiss Corbin again but knew that another
kiss would mean something far more serious and devastating if Corbin wasn’t
receptive this time.
Corbin
watched Nikki tilt her head and her eyes narrowed in response, blocking out for
a flashing second what it might mean, but her face relaxed when she knew what
Nikki was asking for…longing for… and Corbin almost cried when she realized she
just might like to feel it again. ‘I’m such a novice’ Corbin thought, not
knowing how to reciprocate Nikki’s gesture and simply placed her tongue between
her lips to wet her dry lips.
Nikki’s
right hand found and began to stroke Corbin’s left forearm ever so gently as
Corbin’s left hand stroked thru the black strands of hair that seemed to flow
from Nikki’s beautiful head. The girls exchanged sleepy glances as they
nervously allowed fingers to explore one another’s hair, cheeks and arms.
Corbin didn’t know why, but she felt like she needed to reassure Nikki again,
and whispered “It’s okay”.
Nikki
smiled, but maybe it was a sad smile, at least that was how Corbin interpreted
it although Nikki responded with a heartfelt “Thank you”.
“Tell me
again, why did you want to kiss me?” Corbin asked and thought she might die of
embarrassment but wanted to say or do something that might help the moment
along…’help it along to where?’ Corbin wondered. Even though the light from
outside was faint, Corbin swore she could make out the blush in Nikki’s cheeks,
the questions put her on the spot.
Nikki was
blushing, badly, for the first time in her life…a moment she never dreamed of,
she was going to explain what attracted her to kiss someone…to kiss another
girl…to kiss her best friend.
“Well…”
Nikki sighed and cleared her throat as her right hand continued to twirl and
stroke Corbin’s blonde hair. “…I guess…actually no…” Nikki looked away and
summoned all of her courage and looked back up. Corbin remained staring at her,
looking and studying her friend’s expression. “…I don’t ‘guess’…I ‘know’ its
your soul…so kind and innocent that drew me in as a friend, a friend that looked
at you tonight and saw something so sensual in your…”
“Phhhuulleeasseee” Corbin rolled her eyes with a smile at
Nikki’s compliment, but instantly regretted the interruption when Nikki didn’t
smile, but became quiet.
“I’m
sorry…” Corbin suddenly frowned and carresed Nikki’s
right cheek, “…go on”
Nikki
didn’t immediately start talking, but instead brought her right thumb around
and gently carresed the outline of Corbin’s lips and
chin. “I’m a very sensual person Corbin, I think you know this…” Indeed, Corbin started to
see the ‘old Nikki’ coming thru, that incredible sultry confidence that first
drew the two of them together. “…and I don’t physically connect with just
anyone…and never…” Nikki’s eyes suddenly looked up and found Corbin’s staring
back, “…never with another woman”.
Nikki
studied her blonde friend and realized she was hanging on her every word now,
or maybe even her every action.
Corbin
felt Nikki’s thumb withdraw from her lower lip and quietly gasped when the
raven haired beauty extended her tongue and licked her own thumb. Corbin’s
heart felt like it might pound from her very chest as she clamped her inner
thighs tightly together with what she felt next. Gently, Nikki took her spit
coated thumb and caressed her saliva over Corbin’s lips while whispering; “So
soft”. Corbin felt frozen in time and summoned every bit of courage she could
and slid her head over the pillow a couple of inches until her lips touched
Nikki’s. She didn’t kiss her, the trembling in her body seemed to make the
simplest actions impossible, but Corbin did squeak out “I’m scared” as her
trembling mouth touched against Nikki’s.
“So am I”
Nikki moaned back into Corbin’s mouth.
Corbin
never imagined a kiss like this, her whole body suddenly was on fire and awake.
Just a few minutes ago she was on the verge of sleep, now she was
awake…alive…and found herself almost crying when her
body responded to the way Nikki kissed her. ‘I’m kissing another girl’ Corbin’s
mind swooned and found Nikki’s tongue to be soft, sensual and highly erotic as
it mingled with her own tongue. Corbin felt her pussy contract and a dampness
filling her vagina, so much that there was an unmistakable wetness spreading
thru her panties.
Nikki was
struggling to contain her own emotions as her fingers seemed to want to claw at
her friend, to tear into her and ravish her. Nikki was stunned to realize she
wanted to unleash so much passion on Corbin, or that she had been holding so
much back. A moan slipped thru her mouth as her lips moved over Corbin’s and
they’re mouths would open so tongues could explore and intertwine with one
another, mostly in a slow lazy manner. Nikki realized that they were now
clutching one another under the covers, so anxiety filled they actually tugged
on each other’s night shirts with clenched fists as they’re kiss lingered on.
Corbin felt Nikki pull, forcing her closer against Nikki’s body or else her
night shirt would rip. “Oh Nikki…” Corbin moaned as she pulled her mouth away,
but Nikki didn’t stop, she moved her tongue and lips down over her chin and
neck, nibbling and licking at Corbin’s sweat coated skin, “…this is
overwhelming…” Corbin rolled onto her back and writhed under covers, trying to
understand what was happening.
Nikki
made a pivotal decision, ‘Could I go further?’ She wondered, ‘Should I go
further?’ and climbed on top of her blonde friend, snuggling her body tightly
against Corbin’s as they held and embraced one another, leg’s intertwining with
each other and Nikki softly kissed Corbin’s neck. “Oh Corbin, what have we done?”
Nikki moaned into her friend’s neck.
“I don’t
know” Corbin blinked back to reality and stared up at the ceiling as her friend
laid on top of her, her kissing having subsided. Still dressed in panties and
nightshirts the girl’s paused in the moment, each apparently reflecting on what
line they had just crossed. “Just hold me” Corbin sighed and stroked her hands
down Nikki’s back. Nikki smiled and gave Corbin a strong embrace as they lay
silently amongst the dark shadows of Corbin’s room, neither speaking again.
Corbin
blinked her eyes, no longer able to keep the morning sun from interrupting. The
covers were discarded during the night as they both lay on her bed, their
bodies still slightly entangled although they had both shifted during the
night. Corbin leaned up and saw her bare left leg draped over Nikki’s right
leg, their actions of the night suddenly came flooding back and she glanced
over at her door as a thought of her mom walking in suddenly to the sight of
her daughter and girlfriend embracing each other in the bed. Corbin almost
panicked at the thought but resisted springing from bed like a maniac,
especially when Nikki stirred next to her. Corbin went to sit up, but the raven
haired beauty pulled her back down for a brief kiss. Corbin smiled as it
brought back the memories from last night, but the stress of what they had done
caused her smile to quickly fade.
“Going to
shower” Corbin sighed and pulled away from Nikki’s clutches. Nikki didn’t
invite herself nor did she expect it to go that far…things maybe had gone too
far already. Nikki watched Corbin stand and walk towards the door, smiling at
the way Corbin self-consciously tugged on her nightshirt, making sure it
covered her butt, which its length obviously did.
“Get a
fucking grip” Nikki suddenly seethed as she bolted up right in bed, realizing
how she was watching Corbin walk away and down the hall to the bathroom to
shower. She had caught herself watching Corbin’s legs…thighs and remembering
how her body felt and soon realized she was looking at her friend in a sexual
almost romantic way.
Corbin
was thankful for the hot water that blasted down over her, she stood motionless
under the spray while trying to block out everything that had happened. She
teetered between wanting to yell at Nikki with anger for tempting her last
night and then again, she also wanted to plead and cry on her shoulder for more
because she did tap into a secretly hidden place that Corbin had never shared
with another soul. Not even a boy, last night was the most sexual thing she had
ever done with another person and it excited her…it also scared her that it
excited her more then fantasying about being with a boy.
‘Fucking
tongue tied again’ Corbin sighed in her mind as she entered her room and
exchanged an uneasy glance with Nikki who was collecting her things for own
quick shower.
“Huh!”
Corbin stiffened when she felt Nikki grip her left bicep.
Nikki
could read the tension and fear in Corbin’s eyes and took the initiative, “Sit
down please, I want to tell you something”.
Corbin
let out a slight sigh and nodded, “I know, we need to talk about last night”
and already Corbin could feel the butterflies filling her tummy as she rummaged
her left hand over her long blonde hair.
“More
then that, we need to find our way back to our friendship” Nikki said following
Corbin to the edge of the bed. Corbin sat down and took a deep breath as Nikki
kneeled down in front of her. “I wish I knew what to say Corbin,
that I had some answers for what happened last night, but please don’t
stress yourself out over it and believe me when I say I am not playing mind
games with you. I’m in uncharted territory as well” Nikki pleaded.
The sad
look in Nikki’s big dark eyes broke Corbin’s heart and instantly helped to
break the silence.
“Oh Nik…” Corbin whispered and smiled slightly, trying to be
reassuring she also raised her left hand and caressed Nikki’s right cheek
something that did make Nikki smile. “…don’t carry all the worries on this one,
I was right there and would never think of doubting our friendship. I trust you
and hope you can trust me…it…” Corbin sighed and her eyes darted to the open
door, which Nikki quickly sprang to her feet and closed, locking as she came
back to the bed where Corbin sat, sitting now on Corbin’s left their hands
reaching and finding each others.
“Tell me”
Nikki whispered her face close to Corbin’s left cheek.
Corbin
turned to the left a little and her eyes glanced up, they could be intense when
her face was flushed, like now, something that caught Nikki off guard, those
sharp hazel eyes of Corbin’s. “…it…it felt nice Nik”
Corbin couldn’t believe it, she just about choked on the word ‘nice’ and the
tears started down her cheeks as she let out a few sobs. Nikki pulled her
friend over onto her right shoulder and firmly held her, letting her rest her
head for a few minutes. Corbin pulled her head away from Nikki’s shoulder, “I
don’t know why it upset me so much to say that” Corbin smiled and nervously
looked down at the floor.
“It’s
hard…sometimes to admit how we feel or how something makes us feel, without
getting emotional” Nikki gently stroked Corbin’s damp hair that ran down over
her shoulders. Leaning in she kissed Corbin on her left cheek and felt the warm
flush return to her friend’s cheek. Corbin instantly turned her head to the
left, her eyes were closed and Nikki sensed what she wanted, their lips touched
again and soon their mouths were open, searching and complimenting one another.
“Ohhhh Corbin…I love the taste of your mouth on mine…your
tongue in my mouth…” Nikki couldn’t believe what she was saying.
“Nikki…nikki…” Corbin moaned repeatedly, “…why do I love kissing
you so much”.
“GIRLS!!!!!” Corbin’s mom yelled from the downstairs kitchen causing
them to scramble apart, gasping…Nikki running for the door and down the hall to
the bathroom as Corbin lunged for a brush on her nightstand, quickly pulling it
thru her hair.
“What’s
up mom?” Corbin nervously yelled back.
“Breakfast
is almost ready”
“Okay”
Corbin said back and set the brush down on the dresser. “Get a grip” as her
right hand came up and touched her heavy breast, noticing her nipples she so
hard they made imprints right thru her bra and shirt.
“Okay,
I’ll see you at School” Nikki smiled as Corbin walked her to the car.
“Drive
safe, okay?” Corbin sighed and gripped Nikki’s hand.
“Will do”
Nikki replied returning Corbin’s grip.
“Look Nik, I don’t know what to make of all of this, I mean, I
don’t think…” Corbin stammered a bit as Nikki climbed into the Driver’s seat.
Corbin knelt down next to the door as Nikki rolled her window down.
“I
understand Corbin, I don’t want to over analyze this either. We’re good friends
and well…I don’t know, there’s a spark between us I guess” Both girl’s blushed
and Corbin had to look away at the reference to their physical connection.
“I like
that word…’spark’” Corbin said and sheepishly looked up at Nikki and they
stared for a second, studying each other’s expressions. Corbin glanced around,
looking back at her house and then at the neighbors. Nikki picked up on what
Corbin was scoping out for…making sure they were alone and her heart began to
throb in her chest, hoping…
Corbin
leaned in the window and Nikki smiled as they’re lips met, the kiss was brief
but satisfying as they moved their lips gently over one another exhaling sighs
of pleasure that the touch brought. Corbin pulled away and smiled, “That was
nice”.
“Very
nice” Nikki glanced up with that sultry look.
“It’ll be
hard to focus on school and boys when we get back” Corbin sighed, stuffing her hands
into her jean pockets as she backed away from the car.
Nikki
shook her head in agreement, “Very hard, but we’ll be okay”.
Corbin
stood still, and for a moment never felt the chilly wind that was blowing into
her face as she watched Nikki’s car pull away. As she turned with a wave,
Corbin’s heart sank with the realization that she still needed to do some
mending with her friendship with
“Damn”
Corbin mumbled to herself as she shut the front door,
shaking off the cold. “How did things get so confusing so fast”.