Part 3 The Beauty of the Dominatrix:



One Beautiful Dominatrix I became fond of was into the New-Age. She made me
come over and straighten up Her place about twice a week. Her, I confess, I
really enjoyed at first. Her name was Mistress Angina Sheerpants and she was a
really fun lady. She was into forced feminisation et al and really enjoyed Her
lifestyle. She gave me a new and intimate name, which I won't write here.
Sufficient to say it was suitable for taunting a Lady's sissy maid. She seemed
interested in interplay interspersed with the work She designated and I
enjoyed Her threats, given with a seductive superior smirk. First She'd scare
me by telling me what She was going to do to me and then She'd actually do it.
I remember being forced to wash the dishes at Her window in full sight of
passers by. She dressed me in a long frilly orange negligee then She watched
TV, giving me the occasional comment and smile or shocking Her mother on the
phone by boasting that She had a man dressed in a night-dress doing Her
housework for Her. Then I was sent through to tidy Her clothes in Her bedroom
and make Her a nice meal, while wearing a pretty apron of course. Somehow She
managed to keep me in constant consternation and perfect embarrassment with
almost no effort on Her part, which caused Her no end of amusement. She could
make me blush whenever She wanted to and She loved to demonstrate this to Her
Domina friends when they came over to visit. I was even lent to one for a
short time but that's another story again.

I always made sure that I did a splendid job in every task She set for me. In
a way She was kind to me in giving me what I wanted and this relationship
lasted quite a while.

However a power greater than Her was at work and we had to obey and part.

In retrospect I realise that the new age spirits that held Her attention were
just daemons that wanted to manifest their natures in us. We were both held
captive by spirits that used us for their pleasures. Unfortunately She tried
to get me to interact too closely with another of Her slaves, which put me off
and spoiled a "good time". These daemons always try to push further and
further into greater depths of depravity, but we all have a choice. Any guy in
the room is a no-no for me and a real turn-off. My interest has always been in
women alone and that part of her demands made a very disappointing interlude.
She made me pay for my "disobedience" later in another privately delicious way
but it wasn't the same relationship after that.

That dear lady is still into the scene, but has added her own brand of weird
mysticism -pretty far out stuff. I managed to break free of her and the
"scene", at least for a few months and tried to give it up, like an addict
tries to give up drugs. She still has her puppet-master daemons but refuses to
admit that she is one of the puppets and she still remains in bondage to her
own tantric spirits. Dangerous stuff!

Later she set some of her daemons on me for no apparent reason but, thank God,
I was learning defenses by that time.

Then there was Mistress "Sandra". I really liked her too. Secretly I used to
call her Sally-Anne.

Mistress Sandra was every inch a Lady who loved the Ballet and was very classy
by North American standards. She was a very strict black-haired dominatrix
originally from Russia. She summoned me to her house whenever She felt like
it, to run Her errands and to buy Her groceries. She was deliciously stern and
demanding with an impish sense of humour and an engaging smile, but She was a
bit of a disappointment in that She never really gave me anything I wanted.
She told me how Her father used to beat Her mercilessly for no real reason and
how later he would weep remorsefully while asking Her to forgive him.

Mistress Sandra obviously had no respect for Her father and his weakness in
being unable to control the spirits of violence, self-consciousness, rage and
anger. Her lip would curl as She recalled his whining apologies. On his
demise, when the family spirits passed from Her father to Her, they started to
manifest in Her in many different ways. Her unfulfilled desire for revenge on
Her father was transferred to Her, manifesting as a scornful derision for men
in general.

She loved to inflict pain in the most controlled fashion, possibly to prove
that She wasn't out of control like her father had been so many years before.
The same demons that totally controlled Her father couldn't control Mistress
Sandra but perhaps they didn't mind as long as they were being allowed to
manifest through Her in some way or other. Y'see they thought they were in
charge, and maybe they were!

These demonic beings that were attempting to manifest through me all of my
life were not much different than the demonic beings that wanted to manifest
through these Ladies. These "power" demons that made them want to be the one
"directing things", to say the least, were actually directing them like their
own puppet! The Mistress liked the feelings of power they gave her in exchange
for controlling her so she remained as much in bondage to them as I was to the
demons that made me reciprocate for her pleasure! They decimated Sally Anne's
family relationships just so they could manifest their will over her life.
When they're finished with her they'll go on to her children if she doesn't
deal with them now. Sally Anne is not allowed to experience most of the
natural God-given pleasures inherent in humanity, because they have twisted
the pleasure programs of her mind, soul and body to only receive real pleasure
during the time they are manifesting. This again is in order to retain their
control. We human beings need love and pleasure, indeed we normally hunger for
love, joy, peace and acceptance. They use that for their own purposes and
basically nice ladies like Sally Anne get frustrated and unfulfilled in real
relationships that really matter.

This is not just done on folks in the S/M scene, but these beings are present
universally wherever trouble is found. Wars, divorces and crime are all
unnatural occurrences caused by these so-called "negative energy influences"
which the good book called demons which need to be "cast out". Psychologists
give them other names and usually try to help people to accept them and live
with them.

"Pride" is the most dangerous spirit of all as he puffs us up with deceitful
pseudo-energy. They have names like "rage", "lust", "religious indignation",
"guilt", "fear", "power" etc.

You see I learned from personal experience that these beings are real and that
they live as undetected parasites inside almost everybody. They're more easily
identified in artistic people like us who are expressive, sensitive,
adventurous and demonstrative. However, they are the source of almost all of
the troubles in our lives, from relationships to finances. Like hijackers who
hold a car owner at gunpoint they seem harmless as long as we co-operate and
go along with their directions. Once our car is trashed they'll go and find
another victim to joy ride in - at our expense! We do have some degree of
control over them - like a landlord has over a tenant but if we have given
them space they demand to stay like so many dirty squatters! They drain our
energy and can increase aging tendencies.

They can also split and transfer partially to others by conversational words
and intimate touching. They try to worm their way into our personalities and
live their natures through us! They try to persuade us from within with what
seems like our own words! They communicate their nature with ideas, thoughts
and "ideals" that bring us under their control. From the abundance of the
heart, the mouth speaks!

They also have defenses just like squatters. They pretend that they're not
there and that they are just "aspects of our personality". If someone points
out that these spirits are demons they also have another defense. (This is
their main defense). They have the power to make the host (the person they're
living in) really, really angry. That's a good test. If you get really mad
when someone suggests that demons are controlling your actions then, in all
likelihood, it is the demons trying to get you to turn away from such a
suggestion. Can you blame them? After all you are their cuckoo nest.

Like rats that feed on garbage, these spirits feed on retained memories of
emotional hurts, wrongdoings and traumas. If you resist them they may try to
bring in re-enforcements like spirits of "confusion","despair"and
"hopelessness".

They think they own you.

They'll fight to stay!

They'll try to get you so angry that you'll dismiss the concept and then
they'll be safe to continue running your life. If you think they don't exist
then they're safe from your authority as the Landlady of your own body.

If you want to break free from them you can try this web site that may help
you

www.aslansplace.com then click on "New Insights", and begin your quest.

If you want to let the squatters remain, this is your choice.

You are still in charge of your choice. (Rom.1/20-26)

Or even try all these sights have to offer, which is painfully honest and
direct. http://www.hbcdelivers.org

http://www.BloodOfJesus@demonbuster.com After all is said and done, I still
muse on such scriptures as "a whip for the horse, a bridle for the ass and a
rod for the fool's back." Pr.26.3. Also: "in the lips of him that hath
understanding, wisdom is found, but a rod is for the back of him that is void
of understanding."Pr.10.13. They help me. Then there is " Withhold not
correction from the child; if thou beatest him with the rod, he shall not die.
You shall beat him with the rod and deliver his soul from hell."Pr.23.13.
Perhaps those women who tormented me meant well and I certainly don't regard
them as the "enemy", for they are victims also. (I have been commanded to
forgive). The stories in the old testament are mostly parables on defeating
the spiritual enemies that are trying to keep us from our promised land where
everything is wonderful and full of joy for us! Our spiritual enemies are just
demons of lust, poverty, depression, ill-health etc. They are symbolized as
opposing forces in these stories and I suppose that's what they should be
regarded as. Women often triumph in these stories.

I read of Deborah in Judges 4 to 5 who scornfully pronounced that "a woman
would get the victory this day!" because the man Barak refused to obey her
exhortation to go to battle unless she "came with him". I read that she was
proved right as indeed another woman tricked the enemy king Sisera who tried
to hide in her tent (the enemy king's name sounds awfully like "Sissy" doesn't
it?) and lulled him to sleep on her lap by giving him her warm milk. Then she
took a tent peg and drove it through his temples and got the honor (instead of
Barak) for trapping, killing and defeating the enemy king. Deborah was proved
right and got the honor as a proven prophetess. Then there was the proud and
arrogant Abimelech who was attacking a city tower with all his army. He was
burning the door down when a woman dropped a millstone from the top of the
tower. It hit his head and broke his skull. Abimelech didn't mind dying an
honorable death but he was horrified that it might be known or even recorded,
that a woman had defeated him or that a woman had taken his life! That would
be (for him) the ultimate humiliation and he wouldn't allow it to be so. So he
quickly ordered his armour-bearer to draw a sword and slay him! "So that men
say not of me, A woman killed me" The armour-bearer thrust him through and
Abimelech was dead.

Later on it was recorded in the 2nd book of Samuel 11:21. that "Abimelech was
killed by a woman" so that women and men for all posterity would know his
ignominious end. The humiliation he had dreaded was made as deep as possible
for the bible has been the best-selling book every single year since the
printing press was invented, and still is, defeating every other published
book every year! Poor Abimelech! He shouldn't have been so bad! But some say
he just got what he deserved. At least Barak got to rejoice with Deborah that
their side won, but I do wonder how he felt about the women stealing the
thunder of the moment. God has such a wonderful sense of humor!

I have noticed how many ladies purr over these stories as they sit in their
pretty feminine dresses, with their knees primly pressed together, smiling
smugly as they teach the Sunday school children over and over "how the ladies
triumphed - even in those days"!

I note how the bible exhorts husbands to give honor to the wife 1Pet.3:7 and
that "husband and wife should submit to each other"Eph.5:21.

I note how the husband is commanded to love his wife. Actually there are many
stories in the bible where women come out the winners, so it's always
interesting to me when I find areas that I'd never noticed before, especially
where women triumph over the real enemy!

Esther is another example of the triumph of the woman.

The proud and wicked Haman is trying to get all the Jews in the kingdom
slaughtered, not knowing that the king's first wife Esther is a Jewess.

Haman haughtily arranges for a gallows to be built to hang the Jew Mordecai
(not knowing that Mordecai is the uncle of Esther) This is because Mordecai
won't bow to Haman like all the rest of the subjects. Esther bravely arranges
with the king for a special exclusive banquet to be held to which Haman is
invited. She manipulates things so that Haman is exposed for the arrogant bad
guy that he is and Haman gets caught in his own trap and ends up getting hung
on his own gallows. Esther triumphs and her people are saved. She pronounces
sentence on all Haman's family and totally dominates the story with her
heroine-ism.

She was truly the winner!

Read it for yourself someday!

So you see, though much has changed in my life, it is in a form where I can
truly say "it's all for the best".

Still Love, Joy and Peace!

Laurence (one who has been there)

Now You really do know who I am!